☾𝑙𝑖𝑓𝑒𝑙𝑒𝑠𝑠☾ ☾𝚢𝚊𝚖𝚊𝚐𝚞𝚌𝚑𝚒☾

Chapter 6

quick intermission...... vote😉  Setter123: Next question! --------------------------- ⚠️Trigger Warning⚠️: This chapter will have mentions of rape, abuse, self-harm and suicidal thoughts. If any of these trigger you please skip this chapter or scroll to the end. Thank you ---------------------------

(after they ate he dropped him off, yamaguchi did purge but I won't go into full detail of that till later chapters)
Setter123: What are some things you hate?  Freckles177: My Dad. Pretty much it. Haha, Hbu?  Setter123: Wait why?  Freckles177: Not important, You?  Setter123: Come on trust me!  Damn why does he care. We just met anyway. Now he wants to know about my life. I would never tell him though. Even if I did he would think I'm pathetic.  Freckles177: I don't feel like it.  Setter123: aww. Fine I hateeee Cucumbers!  I hear something coming from downstairs. Shit what time is it. Could my dad be home.  Freckles177: I gtg.  I shut my computer off and slightly opened the door to see if he was home. I could see downstairs. He was here. He walked past and went to the kitchen. He was probably grabbing some beer. Shit what do I do? Do I hide? Maybe he doesn't even know I'm gone. He grabbed the beer and was headed upstairs. Shit no. What do I do? Maybe I can say I left because I wasn't feeling well? No damn it he wouldn't care even if I was dying. I felt a pain in my chest. The door opened. And I looked up at him. He was smiling. The type of smile I hated the most. "Hey your teacher called. She said you weren't in class". I took a few steps back. I was scared. I didn't know what to say or if I should even talk. What would he do to me.      "I- I" He slapped me hard and I fell to the ground. I quickly covered my hands with my face. I didn't care if he hit me was long as it wasn't a place that someone could see. "You know Yamaguchi, you really haven't been listening these days. I ought to teach you a lesson.". I tried ignoring him. But he kicked my back causing me to scream. I know I shouldn't have. Now I deserve whatever comes next.  "You DUMB SHIT. Shut the fuck up before you regret." He kicked me again in the same spot. I covered my mouth. I didn't want to hold back tears. I didn't feel like it. They were flowing down my face. He grabbed my arm lifting me. He started to take off my clothes. I was just crying silently. I deserved it. I deserved it. I deserved it. He punched me in the stomach making me cough of a little blood. I can't do this anymore. Right now all I wanna do is die. I don't care about anyone or anything. I wanna die.  He punched me again and again and again. I couldn't take it anymore. Why couldn't he just kill me. I wanted him to kill me. He grabbed his bottle of beer and started to chug it down. He finished it pretty quick. He looked down at me laying there. I bet he was think of how much of a loser I am. There were tears running down my face. Blood all over me. I looked disgusting. He smiled at me and threw the bottle at me. The glass went everywhere. I let out another scream. He looked angry. He took one of the Shards and poked me in the neck. He pushed it in as a screamed in pain. He threw it at the wall and slapped me in the face. He stared to take off his pants smiling. I hated him. Why did I deserve this. What did I do. I hate myself. He removed the rest of his clothes and went in me. I screamed loudly in pain but he didn't stop going in rougher. He never stopped.  I woke up on the floor. I lifted my head but it hurt. I sat up and looked around. There was glass and clothes on the floor. It hurt sitting. I was naked at there was white stuff on me and the floor. I laid back down on the floor in pain. I try getting up again but it was to painful. I look at the time and it was 8:43. My body hurt. I couldn't do it anymore. I looked over to my side and saw a piece of glass next to me. I don't want to do it again. I don't want to hide it. I had already promised tsuki. I can't break that again. Shit. I grabbed it and held it up to my face. I was just staring at it. I squeezed it a little to hard and it cut me. I let it go and watched the blood flow down. It was so pretty. I had to do it even if I didn't want to. I grabbed it and made a cut on my arm. It helped me relax. It was sorta like therapy. And the exact opposite at the same time. But I don't care how bad it is for me. I just want it. I made more cuts. I made them in both of my arms. But it wasn't enough. There was already lots of blood flowing down my arms and dripping on my face. But it's wasn't enough. I needed to do more. It was never enough. I forced myself to sit and ignore the pain. I went over to my thighs and made more cuts. I  made 2 on each one. My arms had 4 on each one. Maybe I made to much this time. Will tsuki notice. Would he even care.        I laid back down. I let the blood flow. I didn't want to clean it up now. I started to cry again. I was laughing and crying. Why am I laughing. I couldn't stop. "I'm pathetic" I closed my eyes and thought about a life. A life where everything was perfect. A life where I had am amazing family, good friends, I was good at volleyball. I life where I was loved. That's all I wanted. I smiled at the thought. It made my heart feel good. I slowly drifted off to sleep smiling.  Dream: "Mom what's wrong" "Why are you crying" "Mom" "Why aren't you listening" I walked close to her and looked at her face. It was gone. I screamed and ran toward the door. The door changed into my dad. He walked towards me with a knife. Lifting it up he quickly stabbed me in the head. End  I suddenly woke up sweating. There were tears running down my face. Why was I crying. I must've fallen asleep. There was blood all around my arms and thighs. Damn it what time is it. I look at the time and it's 3:00 am. I should just get ready now I guess. I forced myself to get up even though it hurt. I walked over to the bathroom. I walked passed the mirror. I didn't wanna look at my face. I turned some warm water on and waited for the tub to fill up. Once it did I slowly got in. The warm water felt weird against my skin. It stung because of the cuts. I lay down and put my head under for a bit. I lifted my head up quickly gasping for air. I wanted to see how long I could stay under. I wiped all of the dried blood on me and cleaned myself up. I slowly got out and walked over to the mirror. I looked at my body not trying to look at my face. Not that I could avoid it. My neck was bleeding and there was hickeys all over my body along with bite marks "shit". I took out some glass that was in my skin. I grabbed some bandages that were in the drawer and slowly wrapped them around my waist. It didn't look very good but that's doesn't matter. I wrapped some more around both my arms and thigh. I took some rubbing alcohol and put some on a tissue. I had to put it on my neck. I can't do it. I slowly placed it on my neck. Damn it! It stings. I wiped it so it wouldn't get an infection.       I grabbed a bandage and put it on the wound. I grabbed wrapped some bandages around my hand. I looked at my face trying to smile. It looked so fake I don't know if I can even pull it off today. I walked back to my room quietly and went over to my closet. I slipped my school uniform on. There was a big mess on the floor. If I didn't clean that up it would happen again. I picked up all the shards of glass and threw them away. I headed downstairs to grab a mop. I went back up and cleaned the blood up. I think that's okay. I went downstairs and grabbed my bag. Maybe I shouldn't eat anything. I'm not that hungry today anyway. It was 4:00 am now. Should I go to school now or wait a bit. I don't wanna stay home but will anyone even be there yet? I mean maybe Daichi naught be, he's always there early. Maybe I should go, it's better than staying here anyway.      I walked out the door and walked down the road. I looked over to see Tsuki's house. I can't stop by today. Sorry Tsuki. Why am I say sorry anyways he probably doesn't care. I walk past his house and head towards school. --------------------------- Hey guys! I'm so sorry I haven't been updating for a while. I've just been kinda busy. Anyway I'm really sorry and hope you enjoy this chapter. I'll try to update more! If you have any suggestions for the next chapter please comment! Thank you 

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