☾𝑙𝑖𝑓𝑒𝑙𝑒𝑠𝑠☾ ☾𝚢𝚊𝚖𝚊𝚐𝚞𝚌𝚑𝚒☾

Chapter 8

vote for this chapter..... since your reading😎 I walked out the door and walked down the road. I looked over to see Tsuki's house. I can't stop by today. Sorry Tsuki. Why am I say sorry anyways he probably doesn't care. I walk past his house and head towards school. --------------------------- When I got to school I head over to the club room to see if anyone was there. Daichi doesn't seem to be here yet and know one else is to. The teacher will probably be at school so it's gonna be open. I should head over there. I walk over to the school. The door was open so I decide to head to my class. I turn the corner and see to teachers talking. I don't recognize one of them. He turns around and we make eye contact for a second. It was him. It was Otanashi Sato! Wait why was he here. I know he said he got a job a a teacher but I didn't know it would be my school. No this can't be happening he'll tell someone. I know he saw me. I ran off quickly heading out of the school. I went over to the club room and sat in front of the door. I put my hands over my face. This can't be happening. Why is everything messing up now! I sat there silent waiting for someone to come. I closed my eyes thinking about what would happen and fell asleep. Daichi P.O.V I arrive at school and head up to the club room. I'm a little early but that's fine. No one should be here yet anyway. I walk up the stairs and see someone sitting there. I walk up to them and notice it's Yamaguchi. What was he doing out here so early. I bend down to notice that he was sleeping. I put my hand on his shoulder to nudge him awake. Back to Yamaguchi P.O.V I woke up suddenly to a hand on my shoulder. I get startled but notice that is was Daichi. "Hey you ok, why were you sleeping here"? I look up at him trying to put on a smile. "Oh.. I- I got here early and kinda just fell asleep". He looked concerned. It was Daichi after all I expected him to be. "Oh ok. But are you feeling ok you look kinda sick". Shit. I should just go to the nurse or something. I don't think I can practice today anyway. "Yea, I'm not really feeling good. I'm actually gonna go to the nurse!" He stood up and heldout his hand. I took it and stood up. He smiled at me with reassuring eyes. "Do you need help getting there" "No no I'm fine". I didn't wanna bother Daichi. It's not like I couldn't get there myself anyway. "Hey yamaguchi, what happened yesterday you weren't in classes or at practice in the afternoon. Do you wanna talk about anything. You know we're always here for you right. You can trust me." I forgot that I skipped school that day. Probably one of the worst decisions I've made. I didn't get anything good out of it. "no I'm sorry for skipping but I'm fine now thank you" He nodded his head not wanted to bother me further. Just then Yachi came up the stairs and looked at us. He smiled but it was a little off. Of course it was. I shouldn't have told her. I wave at her and she waved back. She looked a little worried. Probably because I looked like crap. I quickly run off and walk back to the school. I don't wanna go back there seeing that Sato-san is there. I don't think I have much of a choice though. I'll just head straight to the nurse and sleep there until practice is over. I walk into school and quickly run to the nurse. I open the door and see her standing there. The nurse was an old lady. She wasn't that old but she had gray hair. I asked her if I could I lay down for a bit because I wasn't feeling well. She said yes and let me in a room to lay down. I set my bag down and went on the bed. It wasn't very comfortable but it was fine. I laid there staring at the ceiling for a while. Daichi P.O.V Yamaguchi looked different. His skin was much paler and he looked kinda sad. I hope he's ok. He's been a little different these pass couple of day. Maybe something happened to him? "Hey you ok"? I looked up to see Yachi standing in front of me. Was I zoned off for too long? "Yea! I've just got a lot on my mind"! She nodded her head. I started opening the door as she walked back."Wait, Daichi!" I turned around and saw Yachi looking back at me with worried eyes. "Yea, what's wrong" She walked back up the stairs and faced me. "I have to tell you something. I nodded my head telling her to tell me. " Well Yama- He told me not to tell anyone and I didn't want to at first but now I don't what I should do and I want him to get help because I care for him but he trusted me and I don't know what to do and-" I didn't know what she was trying to say. I cut her off. "It's ok Yachi tell me" I was already having suspicions about yamaguchi. He was acting different but Yachi was making it seem like a big thing which kinda scared me. "Well that one day we went to the bathroom I saw blood on yama's arm and we went there, but he seemed scared then told me not to tell anyone no matter what and he pulled up his sleeve and their were bandages and it's scared me so I asked him if he did those himself and he nodded and he started crying and I just didn't know what to do but he made me promise I wouldn't tell anyone. WAIT I just broke his promise! And he trusted me. BUT I had to do this. He looked different now. He looked pale and tired. I only told you because I thought he did it again. He promised me he wouldn't! I should have told you from the start! GOMEN DAICHI!" What they hell. Was yamaguchi cutting himself this whole time. But I didn't notice. I'm his captain and his upperclassmen and I didn't notice. I didn't know what to say. I should tell suga about this. "Yachi it's ok we'll help him, We'll talk later ok." She nodded her head and apologized again before running off to the gym. I can't believe that just happened. Yamaguchi was always happy. I didn't know he would ever do something like that. We need to help him. I opened the club room and walked in. I changed my clothes as Suga and Asahi walked in. I should definitely tell them. If I'm gonna help yamaguchi I'll need to tell them including Tsukishima since their friends. He might know something. "Hey guys come here real quick" They both walked over with a slightly confused look on their face. I told them both what Yachi and told me. When I finished they both froze with surprised expressions. Suga looked worried. "Guys I also have something to say." Me and Asahi looked over at Suga . "It happened at the bathroom. Well I was in there and heard Yamaguchi in a stall. He was crying for a bit and when he got out he took his mask off and their was a bruise on his cheek. I don't know if someone might've done it. It could easily just have been a fall. But I just wanted to say Incase anyone else saw or knew anything." Wow. This is all happening to quick I don't know what to do. Could something be happening to Yamaguchi. I should've payed closer attention to him. Damn it. Hinata, kageyama, nishanoya and Tanaka walked in so we stopped talking and finished getting dressed. I walked out if the club room and down to the gym to start practice. Back to Yamaguchi P.O.V I was staring at the ceiling spacing off. I hope no one is worried about me. They would just waste time thinking about me. I didn't like how the room was quite. When it was quiet and I was all alone and I'd here thoughts in my head. They never helped me and I hated them. I turned over to my side and decided I should probably go to sleep. Damn it the thoughts started to pour in. I hate myself I hate myself I hate myself I'm ugly I'm disgusting I'm a waste of space I don't deserve to be on the volleyball team I don't deserve friends I don't deserve tsuki I shouldn't be here I shouldn't be in this world I shouldn't be alive I couldn't take it. I put both hands over my ears and curled myself up. I can't do this again. Cut. I can't I don't want to. I can't. I can't. I can't. I had to stop. I couldn't stop thinking about the feeling I got this morning from cutting. It felt so good. But I can't do it again. I promised Tsuki didn't I? I can't do it. I can't. I can't. I can't. I shut my eyes tightly as tears started to fall down my eyes. I can't. I can't. I can't. I slowly drifted off to sleep. I woke up from the nurse softly nudging me awake telling me my first class was gonna start in a couple minutes. I got out of bed and looked at the wall next to me. I must've slept through our practice. I should just get to class. I just remembered about Sato-san. He's a new teacher. He wouldn't be teaching my class though. Right? I shook my head and got off the bed thanking the nurse and walking out. I walked through the hallways to my class. I walked to my seat and sat down. I was safe this class. My teacher was here not Sato-san. I put my head on my desk and closed my eyes. I liked to lay down to pretend I was asleep. I did this so no one would talk to me. It's not like I don't like people talking to me it's just that u couldn't do it today. I didn't have the energy. I laid there for most of class. I didn't care about paying attention right now. I could just ask Kageyama for notes later. I had a good grade in this class anyway. When class was over I got up and walked out if class. I saw Kageyama behind me. He tapped my shoulder and I turned around. "You ok?" I hated that word. Of course I wasn't but I didn't want anyone to know that. I put in all my energy to smile and say I'm fine. I walked over to my next class and sat in my spot to the back. The teacher wasn't here yet so I did the same as last class and laid my head on my desk. --------------------------- Hey guys sorry it took me a while to update. I made this chapter extra long for you guys hope you like it. Thank you! Word Count: 1,919