Don't Look Back

A Lost Love

The next day I sat, waiting for my friends. Demi always beat me to school, where was she? It probably wasn't anything. I sat and waited for Sophie and Fi when Sean came up and sat down, just like on the bus the previous afternoon. "Hey." He said, actually looking at me.

"Hey." I said right back.

"I'm sorry about Annie." He stated simply, looking me in the eye. Memories of the alleyway crowded my mind again; I wanted to fight them off. "Sorry, I just always wanted to say it. What happened was terrible." I just nodded, my vision blurry with tears.

"Hey, I'm sorry, I know what it's like to lose someone."

That day just invaded my brain, not wanting to leave.

It was a day, back in July, when it happened. I was walking home with my best friend, Annie. We were chattering away when she was pushed into the alleyway, by none other than Amanda and Nikki. They yelled at her, throwing threats, telling her to die. I tried sticking up for her, but they started to come back at me, too.

“Whore Annie and no-boyfriend Roni.” Amanda stated. It wasn’t even good. They were mad at Annie because she was going out with Nikki’s ex, Ed.

“Go kill yourselves.” Nikki stated. “He doesn’t even like you, Annie. He just wants sex.” Of course this wasn’t true. “Who would like a fatso like you? And your face? Don’t get me started.”

“Stop! You and Ed broke up! Go find another guy, it won’t be hard for you.”

They rolled their eyes. “Don’t get us started with you.” Amanda said, with a dirty look on her face.

They called Annie and I losers, waste of space, idiots, loners, nerds, freaks, fatties, and ugly. I felt the hurt, but Annie felt it more. The next day I was planning on telling someone, anyone, who would listen, but by then it was too late. There was an announcement made, that I will never forget. We were all in the usual assembly, but it was not the same vibe. The air was filled with sadness, no one knew why until the head of High School made that announcement.

“Hello students and teachers. Today, I will be telling you something that I regret to say. But last night we found out that one of our students, Annie Hunter, ended her own life. We will take a moment to respect her and her family. The great lose they may feel. Counseling will be given for any of those who may feel like they want to talk about it.”

This shook me to the core. Annie. She’s…gone? She couldn’t be. After we were dismissed I just got up and ran. Where? I don’t know, I was running aimlessly, down a hill and out the gates. I ran for a while until my lungs were exhausted, heavy from running. I just kneeled to the ground and cried. I then realized where I was. The park Annie and I would always go to. It was deserted, as usual. I could still feel her, somehow.

I shook and screamed, but couldn’t seem to cry. Demi soon found me on the ground and led me to her car and drove me home. I cried the whole car trip. She dropped me off, my mum already knowing the terrible news. I cried for 2 days, non-stop. I couldn’t get a grip on life. I remember the day I went back to school, Ed was no longer himself. I could see he was in a hole of depression. I remember the look in his eyes, pain. Since then he hasn’t recovered, never letting anyone in anymore. He sits alone most of the time now.

I on the other hand fell into a different hole of depression. One that made me feel not wanted in the world. Like no matter what, I would never feel better. But I recovered, still mourning the lose of a beautiful life. I still miss her. I shed a tear every time I think about the alleyway, because they made her feel like she was nothing.

I now sit here, in the present; on the verge of tears. Sean saw his friends coming and said:

“I got to go. Sorry, about everything. Sorry we didn’t get to save her.” He smiled at me, and looked into my eyes. I felt like I was melting into a puddle on the ground.

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Demi didn’t come to school that day so I decided to call her. There was no answer at the other end, instead a chipper voice mail. I frowned. First off, Demi never misses school, even if she is sick. And secondly, she always answers her phone. I decided to call her home phone. After a few rings her mum answered.

 “Hello?” Her just as chipper voice answered.

 “Hi, Mrs.Rinn. I was just wondering where Demi was today at school.” I said, twirling my hair around my finger.

 “Oh well…She was very distraught on the news we informed her on.” She stated, trying to keep the chipper tone, but it was cracking in some bits.

 “Can I talk to her?” I said, very confused and showing it.

 “I guess you can, but only for a few minutes. Demi is restricted.” I rolled my eyes. Demi’s parents are very strict and never let her do anything with us. I heard some talking and the phone being passed on.

 "Roni?” Demi said, sounding upset.

 “Yeah, what was the news your mum told you? She said it made you very ‘distraught’.” I emphasized on the distraught.

 “She’s..Uh…Sending me to… Boarding school….” I could hear Demi was trying to keep herself composed.

 “What why?”

 “She found out about Evan.” Evan was her boyfriend, but their relationship was very ‘on the down low’ because her parents would not approve of him, or any guy.

 “How?”

 “One word, Amanda.”

 I gasped. I can’t believe this! Why? Why would she do this to Demi? What did Demi do? “This is terrible. Why did Amanda do that?”

“Because she knows how strict my parents are..”

“DEMI! I said only two minutes! Now get off!” Her mum barked at her.

“Sorry I have to go..” She hung up before I could get another word in.

Demi was leaving? But we were best friends since… I don’t even know, that’s how long. We would always be connected. I mean, sure we kind of have drifted after she started dating Evan. But still, we are best friends. Never did I imagine that her parents would ship her off to some boarding school where they will teach you proper manners or something like that. And it was all because one prick who thought she was all that. I won’t let her take anyone else away from me again.

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Authors note: I love Annie, even though she is hardly in it :’( Respect those who have taken their own lives due to what others have said and what they believe about themselves <3

On another note it’s sad to get rid of Demi, but that won’t be the last you see of her. I would like to dedicate this chapter to me bestie who left about 3 years ago, but for different reasons, her parents weren’t super strict and didn’t approve of her having a boyfriend.

Ok comment and tell me if you liked it :) Too many emoticons, I’m sorry

K BYE