7:03 pm
I havent had my proper sleep yet. I did our group activity. Take note, group activity, but my groupmates did not help me. Are they kind? Oh God, please bless them all of them and me too.
I cried last night becasue of that silly thing.I was so worried about my grades while my groupmates dont, because if they are, they will do anything to finish our project.
I texted them but some of them do not have time, some of them did not reply. See? They are so kind. Seriously? Am I the only one who was assigned to that project? It is like I am the only one who's worrying. While they sit and stare.
I texted them right now but only Nikka replied asking when and where. Nikka is really kind. No sarcasm at all, she always replies in my texts while other did not. (I hope Nikka does not have an account here, she might read this.)
We are a ship that will sink anytime soon. I do not know how to motivate them anymore. Why do I need to motivate them? I am not even the leader. I am the only one who is leading the way. Im not bragging but really, I am the only one who is initiating to finish our project.
Is this my punishment to the bad things that I have done? I always belong to those groups who do not worry about their grades. I belonged to a two groups, different courses though; but the same situation.
My friend Juvy told me that I always belong to this kind of group because I was meant to be leader, but I was never chosen as a leader; so do I need to insist myself if no one likes me to be one?
I want to complain to our professors but I am scared, they may scold me, AGAIN. So I cannot. My life sucks. What more can ruin my 1st night of the year? Only them. Lucky them, they made me cry already.
Wew! I should have write that scene on this website entitled my first time to cry in the year 2015 or put my tears in a small bottle and write my first tears in the year 2015. Fvck! Why didnt I think of that thing? Sarcasm overflows.
Ugh! What am I thinking now? I cannot think properly because I lost my brain to those fcking zombies who do not worry about their future. See? I am now thinking about zombies. I am now a crazy. Emeged.
Let me shoo that bad vibes.
Shoo! Bad vibes! Meh.
Ge. I do not have anything to share. Bye.
PS. Let us thank to The Great Jhing Bautista for helping me to erase the entry last last entry. Lol
PPS. Bad vibes striking. Fuck!
