I can't sleep, can't breathe, cause I thought of your face
I'm fighting back the urge to steal the car and go to your place
I'd break down at the door, beg your mom to let me in
Spill out my heart, beg forgiveness for my every sin
I fucked up so much, didn't know what I was doing
Didn't realize what a good thing I was ruining
You took pieces of me I didn't even know existed
I didn't think twice until they were gone and missing
Like you
I miss you, like everyday's a black hole
I miss you, I've spent a month wondering why I decided to go
I miss you, you were my fucking faith and now it's gone
I miss you, every choice I made turned out to be wrong
I miss you
You stole my sanity and left me wounded
Still spinning in circles trying to figure out what the truth is
Did you ever really love me or were you just faking
I've cried so much I can't anymore, I just sit here shaking
No tears running down your face, you're free of it
Free of the sorrow, the anger, the self induced vomit
You'll hold yourself with pride, a new girl on your arm
I'll hold myself like a kicked dog, hiding my self harm
In truth I wonder is this necessary
Am I pathetic enough to not leave this be
But when feelings are exploding
And I've no hands to be holding
I'll write this shit out on paper with pen
Before blood's spurting from my arms again
I loved you
More than death, more than diamond rings
Before I leave, I've gotta say a few more things
I'm not angry
I know all of its my fault
I'm depressed yes, but it's only a small result
Of losing a person I love
Like you
I miss you, like everyday's a black hole
I miss you, I've spent a month wondering why I decided to go
I miss you, your voice was my favorite song
I miss you, and it's my fault you're fucking gone
Believe me, I'd like to be done with tears and regrets
I'd like to be done with panic attacks
And anxiety induced head upsets
But I can't leave you behind just yet
If at all
And this is the last time I'll sing about regretting the fall
Because
I miss you, like everyday's a black hole
I miss you, I've spent a month berating myself for deciding to go
I miss you, you helped me to be me
I miss you, maybe these lyrics will finally set me free
