And I was okay today
We sang, laughed
Joyful, joking
And then it crashed
I ran out
Out of spoons, out of cards to play
To make that smile appear on my face
So I faked it
Used some of tomorrow's spoons
Pulled from days which I don't have
And it costs
God, the happiness costs
But the sadness costs more
Blood, sweat, tears
I'd do anything to run from it
Stay in apathy, in the grey
In debt
So I'll try
Neve lose myself again
Not willingly anyways
And ramble
Poems-not-poetry spilling from my brain
Learning to bargain
And when it's not worth it
