My Life

Chapter 6: Bad Boy Part 2

Going into middle school mom, djonte, and i had moved back in with Reginald. Everything in my life was back to normal. My life seemed like a schedule, routine nothing changed I hate that about life. You ever want to have a little trouble in your life.

Well 6 grade was pretty bad. I mean really bad. I was still fat and I was still a lame. I still felt the need to be apart of the cool kids. I would try so hard to be like everyone else. To make matters worse my Aunt Carmen (Reginald's older sister) worked there. So I always had a eagle on my back watching my every move. I couldn't do anything with out her knowing.

She was the only person in my life I was actually scared of. Well terrified. She would give me one of those beady eye looks and I knew she meant business, but now looking back I'm so thankful for all the ass beating I received from her.

Thank you Aunt Carmen

Well back to me, 6th grade was the year of double Nike socks. I didn't even own a pair of Nike socks. Something as simple as a check on socks made me feel out of place and unwanted. Thing is I craved attention from my peers. Well I would beg my mom to buy me some I would beg her until I finally got some but that wasn't till Christmas. In middle school everyone was rocking vans. I can remember like it was yesterday, I never got my vans until my birthday which I will tell you later in the chapter.

Your probably Reding this wondering, How does this make you a bad boy? , well since I would do anything to be cool I would always make jokes in class try to act like a bad ass, in math one day Mrs. Parker (who is probably top 5 most beautiful teachers I've had) I said something disgusting to her one day and that resulted in me being in iss ( can't put what I said).

In my continued efforts to be a bad ass I had a fight with a white kid named ranger. I remember him like crazy he would always drink Dr. Pepper and wear DC skate shoes. Well me and ranger had I fight. I can't remember what is was over but let's just say I won.

Fighting at school resulted in suspension of course , being suspension , being suspended so many times throughout middle school I was missing the key parts to my education because of this I struggled in math throughout the rest of school.

On person in middle school I will never forget is Malcolm Roberts. Just like me he wanted to fit in so bad. Its not a bad thing its just he was doing what I would do. Do anything to be apart of the cool crowd. Malcom was one of those kids who had a lot of fights but wouldn't win a lot. I can remember me and him had a fight. I can't recall why again but I won. I think im like 5-0 or some, but after all of this fighting I wasn't accepted into the cool kids.

Maybe I wasn't pretty enough, maybe I wasn't skinny enough, there was a chubby person in the cool kids group, what made me so diffrent that I couldn't be apart of them. Maybe I'm to diverse I really just don't hang with black people nor do I just hang with white people. Maybe they envyed me. Maybe I was to cool to be a cool kid. I don't know, I thought being "POPULAR" was everrthing. All I ever wanted was to be accpeted.

Well 6th grade we all had our let's say trends and fads. I'm not ashamed to admit but yes I played with tech decks. I remember we had a tech deck competition to see who was the best. The competition didn't even go as planned.

Well let me tell you about my first girlfriend. Her name was Ariel , honestly I don't know how but I finally had my first gf we didn't kiss or nothing like that we just were gf and bf , later on we broke up I can't remember the exact order of my gfs in middle school but I'll tell you about them all.

Let's skip ahead to 7th grade year, the year of sports. 7th grade year built my hate against my mom because of her I couldn't play sports because my room was never clean. Living on jackson st ( west side of Tyler mostly black neighborhood) our house was nice but not nice nice. It was a pretty old house, In total there was a total of 5 doors in the entire house. The front, the back , the other front door and the restroom front and back doors. So you see I wasn't in a big nice mansion.. It wasn't bad it kept a roof over my head. We had a roach problem bad roach problem and not the regular roaches the ones that flied. Throughout my years of living Jackson st was were I lived the most in my life. My bed was a old white bunk bed , my mattress a old white one with the springs so messed up they started to poke holes over the years. Well now you know how I lived back to 7th grade well you see 7th grade I matured a little. Just a little I wasn't in as much fights but I still felt the need to be considered cool.

It was one kid who moved to our school, from another middle school in Tyler. His name was Jeremy. I even told him this a while back how I looked up to him. Like everything about him was awesome he had a awesome name everyone loved him and he was good in sports. I wanted to be that so bad. I wanted to be the kid with all the friends and sit at the cool table at lunch. Also be accepted by the 8th graders.

Well enough of that I want to tell you about Sydney. She was like my sister but I grew feelings for her. She was probably my first first real gf. Sydney was smart beautiful and she was really good in track. We were really close I felt lucky to be with her till this day I have no clue why she decided to be with me, but then mom had to ruin it. I don't know why but she made me break up with her. I felt hurt because I had to tell her exactly that ...

I felt embarrassed but I was still happy that me and Sydney remained friends. Mom then realized that I was a growing boy and I was old enough to have a gf.

So I felt ...............................