New Jersey Boys

yea.

trigger warning

don't you just love it when you think you're getting better n then something happens n you just spiral like its nothing. like i literally made myself sick to my stomach to the point that i have to go back to when i slept with a bowl by my bed incase i have to throw up. i really thought i was passed that point. n like my parents are sleeping so i was trying not to wake them up when i got the bowl but i did n i didn't want them to know that i needed the bowl incase i throw up because i don't want them to worry. i hate this. i was doing so good too. n then thursday i was in bed all day n basically slept all day. like i don't wanna fall back into that. n then today(friday) i was really feeling myself n was happy n shit n now that it's night time i feel like complete shit. like i don't ever wanna have a daughter cause i don't want her to have to go through what i've gone through. i just wish i could go back to before all of this happened. n i'm sorry that this book has so many chapters of me ranting. i tried to not do that when i first started this book but this is really the only place i can go to vent.

-bree lyn