We went around the block just so we couldn't pass Aashnu to get to the L-Train. Tahimik lang muna kami nag lalakad. Pa minsan-minsan tinitignan ko siya.
I'm weighing my options. Do I ask her about the "I don't date my friends" thing? But what for? It's not like I want to date her Kahit medyo nasaktan ako sa statement na yon for some unknown reason.
Do I just let it go because wala naman ako pákialam sa Aashnu na yun? Do I ask her what's the deal between her and that dude? Do I just open up a topic to forget about the whole thing? Those are the questions running in my mind.
Well, I opted for being a wise guy instead. So, before talking I take deep breath and said,
"That was savage." I chuckle slightly and then glance sideways at Elle. We're still holding hands pa pala. Alam ko naman na women who are friends do this while walking. Pero bakit parang it's giving me a warm fuzzy feeling the way her warm hand is clasping mine.
Napa tingin tuloy ako sa mga kamay namin at sinundan din niya ang mga mata ko. Bigla niyang binitawan ito at tinignan ako na napa ngiwi ang kanyang labi. Para naman napaso or disgusted, I don't wanna think about it.
"Oh sorry." She says and then turns to the front and continue her stride. Habang napako ako saglit sa kinatatayuan ko. I feel bereft for some reason I don't know when she took her hand away.
She stops and turns to me when she notice that I wasn't by her side.
"Tara na!" She says na parang pilit ang ngiti. What the fuck is going on? May iba talaga. Napaisip ako kung ano ba ang nangyayari sa akin at kay Elle. This feels weird, but good. Yan lang nasa isip ko at tumango sa kanya while still shaking off what I'm feeling. I walk towards her and we both go in the direction of the 1st Avenue station.
The train was kinda packed. So, we move towards the opposite door to have more room. We're squished together. She between the door and my body. Her back to mine. I can smell her hair. I close my eyes and let the fragrance travel to my olfactory.
Her hair smells fruity but not sweet. May hint of green tea pa nga. It has a calming effect. I know she can see my reflection with my eyes closed through the window of the door. Nakakahiya, kaya agad akong nag bukas ng mata na siya naman pag píhit niya paharap sa akin.
She smiles that sweet smile of hers. Looks into my eyes and starts to chat about something I can barely hear because I couldn't focus on what she was saying. The sound of her voice is being drowned by the sound of my heart beating fast. What the fudge Faviola?! Take a hold of yourself woman! But it's no use. Kasi pa simple ko pa din siya inaamoy.
I take a whiff of her apples and peaches scent with that hint of green tea from her hair. Her breath minty. She really smells clean. It's very heady. It's intoxicating. I just want to close my eyes again and let it invade my senses.
You're in a fucking train with lots of people Faviola! You have a girlfriend back home who smells good too! Plus, she's your best friend who is as straight as a mother effing ruler! Get off your demented chair and have a move on! My brain screams angrily at me.
I'm really trying to keep my cool, Kahit deep down I'm in a mad panic. I bow my head a little and take deep breaths just to calm myself down.
"Hey Fav, you alright?" Concerned niyang tanong. I take one final deep breath bago ko inangat ulo ko at pilit na ngitian siya.
"Yeah. It's just...it feels stuffy in here." Pag dadahilan ko na lang. I know my cheeks are flushed. I can feel the rush of blood to my face. Wag kang mag blush Faviola! I silently command my myself.
BINABASA MO ANG
After The Fall GxG)
RomanceWhat happens when you fall in love with your best friend then had a sudden falling out because of it? Are you willing to give each other another chance to explore what might have been? This is a gxg romance.
