*Another update! You guys are so spoilt;-) *
Phil's POV
I walked into the living room to find Dan, asleep on Caspar and Joe's laps.
He had tear stains on his face and cuts down his arms and it just broke my heart.
It ripped my heart into two, seeing him like that.
I bit back tears, as Joe and Caspar noticed I was home.
'Oh hey.' Joe whispered. 'He fell asleep a while ago, we thought we'd just leave him be.'
'That's okay, how is he now?' I asked nervously.
Caspar shook his head. 'I don't know, not great. He started crying in his sleep.'
The lump in my throat was choking me, and I felt like if I started crying now, I'd never be able to stop.
Dan's eyes flickered open. 'Phil?' He said, sitting up immediately.
His eyes were red, his cheeks blotchy.
'Hey, I'm here now.' I smiled softly at him.
'I'm sorry.' He said sadly, looking right in my eyes as I went and sat with them all.
'There's nothing to be sorry for Dan.' I told him, kissing his forehead gently.
'I let you down.'
'No you didn't, you could never let me down Dan, I promise I'm not mad with you.' A tear rolled down his cheek as he leant his head on my shoulder.
'Shall we leave you two to it?' Joe asked politely.
'You can stay if you like? There's the spare room or the sofa?' I offered. 'It's late and you've done so much to help.'
'Really? That'd be great thanks.' Caspar grinned, grabbing Joe's hand.
'The bed is set up in the spare room already, sorry there's only one.' I explained, wiping the tear off Dan's cheek with my thumb.
'I'm sure we'll survive.' Caspar told me, winking. Joe blushing furiously.
'Erm yeah I think we'll go up now.' Joe said, clearing his throat.
'Night guys, and thank you.' I said.
'Night you two, night Dan, mate.' Joe smiled, pulling him into a hug.
'Night Joe, night Caspar. Thank you.' Dan said lifting his head to show a small, grateful smile.
Joe's POV
Caspar lead my upstairs, holding my hand the whole way.
One we were in the room, we just decided to get undressed, I hated sleeping in jeans.
We crawled under the covers together and curled up.
Caspar turned his head towards me and kissed me softly, then bit my lip gently. God it was hot.
He grinned, knowing I loved when he did that.
Then pulled me into him and fell asleep.
I lay there for a while, just looking at him.
I just felt so lucky to be able to lay there and just look and the most gorgeous person I've ever met. And he's all mine.
Dan's POV
'I was so sure that you'd hate me.' I frowned, telling Phil what happened.
'I promise you I don't hate you. I love you Dan.' Then he blushed and started stuttering. 'I mean I-i-i-'
I grinned, the biggest grin. 'I love you too Phil.'
'I promise you I'm here for you. Even when I'm not physically here, know I care about you, I hate when you hurt yourself and I'll be back soon to watch anime with you.' He smiled, running his hand through my hair.
'Why are you even with me? I'm the luckiest guy alive, I don't deserve you Phil.' I confessed, I really don't understand why Phil was with someone like me. But he was.
'Do you really want me to answer that? The reasons why I love you? Because I will. I'd tell you every day of your life if it makes you believe that I love you.' Phil told me.
I bit my lip to hold back tears. 'Okay.'
'I love the way you get annoyed with me for eating your cereal but you're not really angry. I love your hobbit hair, even though you don't. I love how much effort you put into your videos and care about your viewers. The way you get so cute and awkward around other people. Your silly dances during songs at radio 1. I love that you love me.' Phil finished, out of breath.
'I fucking love you Phil Lester.' I said quietly. Then grabbed his cheek and pulled him closer to me, so close I could feel his warm breath on my face.
Then I kissed him.
Softly.
Breathlessly.
It felt like it could last forever.
And I wish it would.
