𝐛𝐚𝐞𝐤𝐲𝐞𝐨𝐧 • 𝐬𝐨𝐦𝐞𝐨𝐧𝐞 𝐲𝐨𝐮 𝐥𝐨𝐯𝐞𝐝

❍ 42

"What in the world is wrong with you?!" It broke my heart even more to see Taeyeon crying again because of me.

I am lost. So lost...

That day when I saw Ji Eun cried, hurting so much because of me, I wanted to disappear. I was the one who pushed that we must include the band on this Foundation Week's closing program to make the band active again because Taeyeon loves that band, she founded it. But I did not know Lisa would ask for such thing...

And when I realized Ji Eun has to go through all of this again because of me... Because of my selfishness to make Taeyeon happy again... It made me feel like I wanted to make Ji Eun know that I care for her even just a little bit of it.

But now seeing Taeyeon crying in front of me, again, I felt like I was doing it wrong from the very start.

I wanted us to get back together. That was the plan, right? But where are we now? We are still just friends because of my stupidity. I don't think I'd ever make both of them happy if I continue being around them.

This time I couldn't say a word to her. What is wrong with me? I don't know... Taeyeon, I don't know.

Tears flowed down my cheeks too. But before it gets worse, I wiped it off and shook my head.

"Nothing. I just feel exhausted, I think. That's all." I rushed fixing my things to leave the room immediately. I don't think I could handle this conversation when the woman I love the most is hurting because of me once more.

But when I was about to walk pass the door, she grabbed my arm, begging me...

"Baekhyun, please tell me... What's wrong?" Her pleading eyes is still in tears and I couldn't even look at her straight in the eye because I am a fucking coward.

After a moment of silence and some sobbing, I decided to reach for her. I wiped her tears and she held my hand.

"Taeyeon, I'm sorry. But I think I can't do this anymore..."

Her jaw dropped and I could see her pain. It's too much that I feel like my heart is breaking too.

"W-What do you mean?" Her voice cracked as she continue crying.

I couldn't say it again... I couldn't. I am holding my tears for too long already that I am a hundred percent sure my voice will crack too when I speak. And I don't want to leave a weak impression to her. I don't want her worrying for me.

So, I hugged her, "I'm sorry... I'm sorry if I'm hurting a lot of people..." I said before finally leaving the room.