"You can leave now if you want. There won´t come much more people in the next hour and I can do it all on my own. You seem really tired" My friend Kate offers and takes the food for me and brings it to the table.
"Yeah i´m really tired. Thank you and see ya tomorrow." I gave her a thankful smile when she comes back and get all my things. I leave through the back door and walk back home in the rain. It isn´t a long way only five minutes but I´m wet and cold when I get home.
People are looking at me in the staircase. They are always on the floor and talking with neighbours. I think most of them haven´t good a job and are bored. A women is looking at me like I´m some kind of monster or murder. Probably my mascara is blurred and I look like a panda and my hair is gone all messy owing to the wind. And I might leave a trail of water behhind me.
My thoughts are right when I look in the mirror behind my door and I see what I have expected. I undress and put some boxers and a wide and comfy sweater on which I realise is one frome Ashton I have kept. On the front is a Blink-182 logo and I remember that is one of his favourites bands.
The kitchen is a big mess cause I haven´t washed the dish in two days which isn´t like me normally. I turn the radio on and roll up my sleeves and begin to wash the plates and the other stuff.
"And next is the new song Amnesia by 5 Seconds of Summer." The moderator announces.
Technically I would change the station but it´s a new song and I´m curious about it.
I continue to wash the plates and listen to the lyrics.
I drove by all the places we used to hang out getting wasted
I thought about our last kiss, how it felt the way you tasted
And even though your friends tell me you're doing fine
Are you somewhere feeling lonely even though he's right beside you?
When he says those words that hurt you, do you read the ones I wrote you?
Sometimes I start to wonder, was it just a lie?
If what we had was real, how could you be fine?
'Cause I'm not fine at all
I remember the day you told me you were leaving
I remember the make-up running down your face
And the dreams you left behind you didn't need them
Like every single wish we ever made
I wish that I could wake up with amnesia
And forget about the stupid little things
Like the way it felt to fall asleep next to you
And the memories I never can escape
'Cause I'm not fine at all
I realise that the lyrics mirror exactly my feelings and continue to listen in interest.
The pictures that you sent me they're still living in my phone
I'll admit I like to see them, I'll admit I feel alone
And all my friends keep asking why I'm not around
It hurts to know you're happy, yeah, it hurts that you've moved on
It's hard to hear your name when I haven't seen you in so long
It's like we never happened, was it just a lie?
If what we had was real, how could you be fine?
'Cause I'm not fine at all
I remember the day you told me you were leaving
I remember the make-up running down your face
And the dreams you left behind you didn't need them
Like every single wish we ever made
I wish that I could wake up with amnesia
And forget about the stupid little things
Like the way it felt to fall asleep next to you
And the memories I never can escape
If today I woke up with you right beside me
Like all of this was just some twisted dream
I'd hold you closer than I ever did before
And you'd never slip away
And you'd never hear me say
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Memories (Ashton Irwin Ff)
FanficMemories Memories are one of the most important things in the world. Memories are a sweet escape. Sometimes you wish you could remember every single detail of someone. But sometimes you wish you could forget everything about this person.
