The Tattoo Kiss (Jaylor Fanfiction)

Everything Has Changed

May 2nd; 2012
Two Weeks Later
Taylor Swift's Point of View
      Dear diary,
                I'm moving back to Nashville. Liv and I have started packing but there isn't much to pack honestly, we're just lazy. We're leaving next week because Liv needs to finish school. It's her last week of school then she's on summer break. I'm releasing the new album in two months, I hope people like it because otherwise I went this far just for nothing. I'm calling the album Daylight and this is the track list: Our Song, Love Story, You Belong With Me, The Story of Us, Enchanted, We Are Never Ever Getting Back Together, Holy Ground, All Too Well, Shake it Off, I Did Something Bad, Getaway Car, Cruel Summer, I Think He Knows, Daylight, Cardigan, and Betty. 16 tracks. I wrote a lot of songs over the years so it's like each couple songs defines a new period of my life.
In 13 days we are releasing the first single...Cruel Summer. I haven't done any photo shoots or interviews yet but I've made a music video for it. For once it feels like I'm getting somewhere in life though. If all goes well, I'll play Cruel Summer live in a couple weeks.
Olivia, she's becoming attached to Joe. I feel like she loves him more than me sometimes. Joe is going to leave eventually and it'll break her, I know it. Joe and I, we haven't had too much sex recently as he's learned you can't do it when there's a five year old child 10 feet away. Joe, he's selling is apartment on Long Island, it's like he's a dog trying to chase its own tail. In the end you're not likely to catch it but if you do, it causes more pain than happiness.
I've been collecting more secrets recently. People keep secrets because they're afraid of the consequences of revealing their secrets. Some secrets are harder to say than 'I broke the vase.'

                -Taylor <3

This is when I look at my journal and pack it in a box. I'll be fine without it for a couple weeks...maybe. I go into the kitchen and grab a Twinkie from one of the cabinets. We have an unlimited supply here...I crave them constantly. I've probably gained 10 pounds off of just Twinkie's which probably isn't that bad since I've been 25 pounds underweight cause I was banished from Nashville. Look out Nashville, I'm coming for you and I'm gonna make you my bitch.
That sounds a bit aggressive, doesn't it? A lot of my music career recently has been motivation to show my parents I don't need them to be successful. I can achieve things without them...basically it's a big fuck you.
Something tells me my parents will try and reach out to me once I release my music. I'll decline that phone call as much as they declined my existence did six ago. Maybe I still have repressed anger.

"Mommy, why do we have to move?" Olivia asks as she sitting on the floor with some tape.

"I have a job in Nashville now. Sometimes when adults get jobs, they have to move. Joe will be coming if that makes you feel better."

"Okay..."

"Wanna know what's also fun? You're not gonna have to go to school anymore. You are going to be homeschooled which means you can sit in your pajamas all day."

"Really?"

"Mhm. I'll help teach you. Mommy was a straight A student so I think it'll do pretty good."

"Mommy, what's your new job?"

"I'm going to be performing music. You know how I like to play music for you? Now I'm going to be playing in front of a lot more people."

"Will you still play for me?"

"Of course. You're my favorite person so I have to play for you."

"Do you ever play music for Joe?" Weird question but children ask weird questions I guess.

"Uh...yes."

"Have you ever wrote a song about him like you did me?"

"I write songs about my life and my life story. I don't write about people."

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   Dear diary,
          We didn't have many boxes but when we got to Nashville, the first thing I took out was this journal. I know it's just a journal but it doesn't feel like that. It feels like it has my life story and what I've gone through. Liv is done with school and is on summer break. We have set all of our stuff in Joe's house until I'm able to get my own place. My single is being released tonight and I have an interview tomorrow to talk about it. I have a fanbase of 0 people but I think it'll grow one day. I haven't run into my parents yet which I think is for the better. If I saw them I would...I would not be nice. I heard some stuff about Calvin the other day. Apparently he's not as small of a star as I thought. He's released a couple of albums over the past years. I heard his song on the radio, I immediately switched it.
Now that my music career is growing, I feel like my life is going to be studied more...every move I make is going to be recorded. It's an anxious way to live definitely. My biggest concern is Calvin finding out about it. If he puts one and one together, he might find out the truth.
I'm very anxious about the new video. What if it doesn't make it and I am denied by social media? I'm eventually going to be self sustaining but it scares me that it'll take longer than I thought. I have downloaded tumblr, Instagram, and twitter to promote myself. My publicist said it was a good idea to. Jeez, I have a publicist now. Only 9 more hours until the release of Cruel Summer...

             -Taylor <3

I walk over to Olivia and sit next to her. "Mommy, why are we having a party tonight? I don't like people I don't know."

"You know my new song? We're all going to celebrate it's release."

"Will I have cake?"

"Yes, you will have cake."

"Yay!"

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"Okay, it's going live in 3...2...1." A producer of mine clicks the computer which uploads the music video. We all cheer and clink our glasses together. Most people were drinking champagne but I decided to go with some water, seemed more interesting.

"When will it be on iTunes?" I ask.

"A few minutes. It'll take a moment to upload."

I sit on the couch and look down at the views on the computer. There are 0 so far which causes me to sigh.

"There's nothing."

"You haven't refreshed it."

"Oh..." I go to the top of the browser and click refresh. 13,000 views already? It's been like 2 minutes. I get $2 for every 1,000 views so I guess I'm already $26 richer.

"Mommy, can I have cake now?" Liv asks with a puppy face.

"Sure, you can have cake." I cut a small slice for her and she goes into a corner with the plate. She eats it with her hands which I find a little funny but maybe I should teach her to not to that. Meh, I'll do it later.

"You finally did it, Teffy." Austin gives me a small side hug as he sits next to me on the couch.

"I finally did it. Look, it has 47,000 views now." I point to the screen where the views keep increasing every minute.

"Look at you go."

"I've made almost $100 now." This makes him chuckle slightly.

"I'm proud of you."

"I have an interview tomorrow, can you watch Liv for me?"

"Can't your boyfriend do it for you?"

"He's not my boyfriend! Plus he's coming with me to make sure I don't fuck it up."

"Okay, okay. I'll watch her."

"Thank you."

Every minute I watch the views go up and begin to increase rapidly. I know I'm just a new artist and this is my first ever song, but I never expected anything like this.

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Author's Note:
Olivia being a whole ass mood.

I keep trying to write but my cat keeps crawling on my phone.