IRRESEPLACEABLE (PARK JINYOUNG X READER)

#23

Even though I tried really hard not to show my feelings and loneliness, I guessed the people who cared about me somewhat noticed that something's happened.

My mom tried her best to spent more time with me. Given her work, I know its really hard for her to make time. And I really felt bad for her. So I tried my best to wear a happy face in front of my family, trying my best to hide my emotions.

Its hard though. But I somehow managed the past few weeks.

But it all crumbled down when I saw him one night with Sooyoung. It still breaks my heart to see him with her.

One day, Sooyoung showed up in front of our school.

"Why are you ignoring all my texts and calls?" She asked as soon as she saw me walking past her.

"I have to reason to talk to you" I answered coldly.

"Wait" she grabbed my hand, "I really need to talk to you. Please" she pleaded.

My curiosity kicked in, and I agreed to talk with her.

"I really dont have time. So make it quick" I warned.

"I'm leaving Seoul"

"Why are you telling me that?"

"I thought you'd be happy that I'm leaving"

"You're not completely wrong" I replied sarcastically.

She laughed making me confused.

"Do you want to know why I came back to Seoul?" She asked.

"To be honest, things havent been good with my husband. We may divorce soon who know" She let out a dry laugh. "I was really scared that he'd leave me. If he did, I would be all alone. And I dont want to be alone. Jinyoung really loved me, at least he used to. So I thought, maybe, if he still loved me, I thought maybe we could be back together. But thats just a selfish thought. When I first saw you two together, I already realized that I had no chance at all. I saw how he looked at you, he really cared about you"

"Why are you telling me all these?"

"I just feel like it. Before I leave, I want you to promise me something. If you really love him, dont ever leave him. I already did once, dont do it to him twice"

"And I also want to tell you that I never had intention of hurting you"

"But that article.."

"That wasnt written by me. I did wrote about you two, but I never thought of publishing it. It was just my way of venting my anger"

"I better leave or I'm gonna miss my train. I guess this is goodbye then. It was nice meeting you Rose. Please take care of him for me" she bid her goodbye and turned to leave.

"Unnie!" I called out to her. She turned her heels.

"I hope things work out between you and your husband"

"Thank you. I appreciate it. Take care"

With that, she disappreared.

Talking with Sooyoung, it made me wonder if he'll ever loved me like he loved her.

At night, I opened my drawer to search my workbook. Hiding between all the books was the necklace he had given me on my birthday. I havent worn it since that time and had kept it away to stop myself from thinking about him.

Thinking back, I had so many memories with him thats its hard to forget. Because a time spent with him is a precious moment, I could never forget it, even if I want to.

I put on the necklace and rushed out of the house, ignoring my mom's call.

I ran and ran until I reached his house. I rang the doorbell continuously until he opened the door.

When he finally did, without saying anything, I hugged him tightly.

He seemed very confused with my behaviour, but didnt say anything.

"I'm only going to sag this once, so listen carefully"

I took a moment to catch my breath.

"We've known each other for only a year and a half. But it is the most happiest time of my life. You once told me that you'd never let me go. So I'm also telling you dont I wont let you go either. Even if you push me away, I will always come back to you. I wont ever leave you, so you cant leave me either"

After I was done, embarassement followed.

He chuckled lightly. He broke the hug and looked at me intently.

"I promise I wont leave you" he smiled.

"I love you!" I confessed, but quickly covered my mouth when I realized I was saying out my thought.

"What was that? I didnt hear it clearly" he teased.

"I didnt say anything" I defended.

He cupped my cheeks.

"I love you too!"

"Get in. I'm going home" I said and pushed him inside. I need to clear my head because right now, I'm about to die out of embarassement.

"Hold on. I'll walk you home" he insisted.

"No! I need to clear my head" I kept pushing him. He stumbled upon his shoes and fell down. "Sorry" I apologized and shut the door at him.

I could hear him yell from a distance.

I'm really glad everything's back to normal again. Like it used to. I'm happy. So Sooyoung unnie, I hope you find your happiness too.