Sweet Escape

2

Lena wake up the morning with a little bit headache. It's 08:00 AM on the morning, and it's saturday, wondering why Ethan didn't wake her up with any tickles. Saturday is Ethan's day. And suddenly she realize Alex is here last night and she wasn't sure if Alex is staying overnight or not. Yes Alex and her never have any relationship, not close enough for being friend who stay over the night. Alex just can leave last night if she wants. And Lena just come to find out. But no matter it is, she have to talk with Alex, about Ethan.. if she found Alex was left last night, surely she would not be angry, she would just make a call to Alex and make the lunch happen. At least she have a reason to ask Alex out.
She walks accross the rooms and she found a her son and Alex sitting down on the floor, in living room, Alex is in Lena's t-shirt and short pants, her hair was messy, that morning look, and the smile on her face everytime she talks with Ethan. The reason why Ethan not waking her up today.
"It's finish." Alex said, with a big smile on her face when she gives something to Ethan and Lena just heard big WOW from her son. "Thank you, Alex. That's the only toys i choose by my self."
"Are you?"
Ethan nodded. "Yes, i always got my present without choosing it. Umm i got so many, almost everyday. But that's the thing that mommy choose for me, or Jess, or somebody else mommy ask to," he told Alex. Lena can see how then Ethan put another toys to Alex's hands. Alex is holding a screwdiver on her hand, and another tools on the other hand, looks like they are fixing something, but it's only Alex. Ethan sitting close to Alex and looks like he really enjoy the view when Alex doing something with the Optimus Prime robort on her hands.
"He broke his hand in the fight with Bumble Bee."
"Oh really. No way. Did Bumble Bee beat him?," Alex respond. In the tones that Lena never ever heard it before, it's Director Danvers sitting on the floor, the best Agent DEO ever have. The one who certified with more than 30 different weapons, the expert of hand in hand combat, the one who gives command to more than hundred soldiers on DEO.
"Seriously, Bumble Bee always did it. I feel sorry to him," he answered and look like he really feel sorry to this Optimus Prime. And then his face is shining when Alex finish her job.
"Oh thank you buddy.."
Did Ethan just call Alex buddy? Where he learns those words?
Lena's not moving from where she watch them. She just dont want to interupt them. Ethan looks like really enjoy the moments. Lena never saw him this way.
"Make sure he take care of him self from now on,"
"Can't promise you. They'll have another fight tonight".
"Really? How if i don't fix the hand this morning?"
"So the fight wouldn't happen coz it's not fair. Optimus Prime even can't do it with both hands.. i mean.. would you be here to watch it?," he ask, shyly. Alex noticed that Ethan really want her to say yes.. but..
"Umm maybe you can fix it just in case something's broken," he added, in a very small voice, almost in a whisper.
Alex just want to say yes. Sitting one hour with Ethan make she forget her pains for a while. Pushing it to nowhere inside her heart. The pain is still there. The pain of losing Kara. The pain for those lonely night on her apartment. No sister's night, no game's night. They're not doing it anymore since Kara left. And there're no Maggie's lips on hers, no Maggie hands, it's cold at night. She ussualy sleep on Maggie's warmth on her bed. A late night talks, a simple hug on Maggie's hips. Sometimes they two not talking too much. Just Alex hugging her from behind when Maggie doing something with her laptop, working on same report on the bed. Or the other nights that they sharing sweats on Alex's bed. Maggie always said it a night workout and it more effective than doing cardio for hours.
Alex's feel it hurts when all those things cross her mind.
"Hey, you dont have to. I am not forcing it to happen." Ethan said while he grab Alex right hand, try to look at Alex's eyes carefuly.
Lena feel sorry to Ethan but Alex don't have any obligation to be with Ethan, Lena knows it's too much.
But Ethan's face that makes Lena hurts a little. She can't blame Ethan for being excited to Alex Danvers. She remember when Rubby Arias did the same to Alex.
"No.. i didn't mean that. I want it, but.. umm I mean maybe someday i could bring you out so you can choose the toys by your self. We can go to the mall maybe?"
"Realy???" His eyes wide open and then his face turns to a frown in a minute.
"Umm Mommy would not let it happen. A lot of bad people outside. But i can choose what i want from online shooping."
Alex saw that Ethan is fixing his self from dissapointed like he always used to do it and Alex just feel sorry for this little boy.. he's to young for this. He just around four....
"We can do it, baby. Your birthday is coming."
Alex hear Lena's voice up close. Not sure how long Lena have watching them.
Alex feel blushed when she realize Lena watching them. Watching her with short pants and mini t-shirt that expose her skins and her muscles.
Lena feel something on her throats when she saw Alex. She knows that Alex works out alot but she never imagine it before.
Alex Danvers under her combat suit..
Ethan run to Lena, bumped his body to Lena's and hugging Lena so tight.
Alex smiled. Can't imagine if something happen to Lena last night and she wondered why Lena did it last night. Drink till drops. Why she being so weak when she have something amazing on her penthouse.
If there was Alex, with all of this, that adorable smile Ethan has, that loving dark hair, the sweet dimples that reminds her of Maggie, and the smart brain on his four years body.
"Good morning," Alex said. Trying hard to be formal.
Trying hard not to be so amazed by the view. Lena luthor wearing glasses and tanktop, without any bra behind it, Alex can see something pressing from her tanktop...That messy ponytail. That sexy smart face. Sexy and smart.. two things that fair enough to make Alex's heart skip a beat.
Alex imagine her hand inside the hair, and Lena Luthor under her tank top..
What the fuck are you doing. Why you act like a horny teenager... it's Lena Luthor, your sister's best friend.
"You stayed."
"You ask me too,"
Lena nodded. Sometimes she just don't know what to do. How to start with Alex Danvers. She never involved to something besides the works with Alex.
The older woman who taking care of Ethan show up in the room with a fresh baked on her both hands. The smeels of cheese cake fills the room.
Ethan screams on his cute voice.
Does he always being so excited?
"Ms. Danvers taking care of Ethan when i'm doing breakfast." The older woman talking with Lena.
"Thank you.. Alex.." finaly said it.
"Hey baby would you mind if i borrow your mechanic for a while? Promise to give it back A.S.A.P "
Ethan look at Alex and giving the best smile for her.
"No she's not my mechanic. She's my friend. Are you?"
He's talking to Lena then to Alex. His eyes full of hopes, make Alex want to kiss her cheeks but she didn't do it. She's not sure Lena would let it happen.
"Sure. You'll have me on the list. With Bumble Bee and his friends".
Ethan laughed and run to his breakfast.
Lena kiss his forehead before direct Alex to leave the living room.
Lena walk to her bedroom and Alex follow it.
Alex just feel the heat on her body everytime Lena moves.
She swears to God that she'd never being so fucking crazy about this woman. And it's two years. Two years of being friend with Lena Luthor.
Yes they are officialy friend. At least they had dinner together, games nights and some project together at DEO.
But never in this condition.
Alex refuse to look at Lena's pale skin and choose to look at the floor when she hears click when Lena close the door.
"It's a long story," Lena started. Asking Alex to sit down with her on the big couch next to her.
"Did Kara know that?"
Lena shook her head.
"I have secret too."
"Can't believe it"
"I know.."
"Look, Luthor.. i mean Lena.." don't know why she have to correct it. Alex moved her hands to Lena's shoulder. Lena felt a spark running up her body from Alex's touch.
"You don't have to tell me anything. You would just keep it as a secret and i won't ask you to tell me just because i found it."
"I know. You don't have to listen to my problems." Lena laughed. Wet and mirthless.
"It's not something like that.. you know.." Alex stop. Her voice choked. She's not sure why. Because the shocking fact that Lena Luthor have a son or because she feels really turn on with Lena Luthor sit next to her, on a couch, in her bedroom. Alone. Just two of them.
She just imagine if she would just told Lena to get undress if she wants Alex to keep her secret safe. And press Lena of to the couch and kiss the sexy red lips. She pulled her hands from Lena's shoulder before her mind is going more crazy on Lena.
"I so sorry.. for being here last night. And catch you with your secret. You've been hiding it for years. You must be have a strong reason for it. So i wont ask you to tell me."
"It's not your fault. You saved me."
Alex roller her eyes and it's second time Lena feels it cute when Alex did that. She feels something strange in her self by being so close to this woman. That hands.. yes the hands.. look so strong and...
"About last night.. it's not the first time, right?"
Lena nodded.
"Yesterday is too much to handle it."
"Anything distrubs you yesterday? You could talk to me" Alex offered.
"Everything. Everyday. I'm a Luthor. Don't forget it."
"I bet the bottles in your office is not for showing up."
Lena smiled. "I can feel your breath too last night. It's Tequila. Isn't it?"
"Yap.. i told you i'm on the bar last night when you assistant call."
Alex stepped forward a few inches.
"Only another night after DEO's things. Chilling up with new friend. Having fun. Through the night. And moving on the morning."
"New friends.. through the night.. i don't know it's a Danvers's thing."
Alex raised her eyebrows. Feeling embarrased a little bit.
"Not everytime. Sometimes i just blackout. Don't remember anything in the morning."
"You should take care more of your self Danvers".
"Kara taking care of me.. always.. it was..".
Lena feels pain in Alex's last world. Lena know Alex not going out too often and Alex used to be always with Kara on day off and free night.
"I know.. i miss her too." Lena whispered.
"Are you? I thought...."
"Angry with Kara? Yes.. a little bit... and i'm missing Kara? it's a little bit more. More deeply. It's more hurts everytime i take my breath and her face appears," Lena said. Breathless..
"Oh, Lena.." Alex said, reaching over and grabbing Lena's hand. "I feel it to.. Kara just..."
"You know, Lena. Everytime i ask my self to stop missing her.. or trying to missing her less. Remember everything that may make me hate her a little. I just can't found it.. she never done something bad. She always a good person."
Lena's eyes wet. She knows what Alex just said was true. She excatly feel the same. Kara never've done something bad to her. Kara and Supergirl always there to protect her. If she can just turn back the time and accept it when Kara try to explain to her, she would hugging Kara so tight and never let go the only best friend she have, and she's going to tell Kara her own secret. Kara worth to know it. Kara has proved that she's the best person Lena has met.
Her tears falling over her cheek.
Alex cupped her hands on Lena's face.
"We can get through this.. i know she would come back.. someday.. and you Lena.. you have something to fight for here."
Lena nodded. Alex pulled her hands, and once again Lena lose the warmth feeling on her skin. Lena hates how Alex playing her emotions.
What? Did she craving for Alex's touch.
Yes, to being honest, sometimes Lena feel a little bit jealous with Kara whenever she caught Alex wraping her hands to Kara's. Whenever Alex wiping the breadcrumbs from Kara's face at dinner. Whenever they doing sister's dance and hugging each other at the end of dancing. That's a pretty gesture that Lena never experience it with her brother Lex.
And then Lena feel weird when she found her self a little more jealous when she saw Alex hugging Maggie. Put her arms around Maggie's body, being so protective with her first girl friend, the way Alex look at Maggie, things thayt Lena only saw it on movie and Lena close to believe it that something like that is just happen in cheap love movie.
And now having Alex Danvers sitting close to her in the same couch. In the mini college t-shirt that belong to hers. They two are in the same situation. Both losing. Both crying inside.