i remember it like it was yesterday. the accident i mean. i was in the wrong place at the wrong time and because of me, we may of lost him.
we were on stage doing the last dance of diversity live. the show went great and everything went as planned until i seemed to forget to move my feet. i missed the beat and ash couldn't get past me fast enough. mitch got ready to run and ash was a beat behind. mitch wasnt watching as we did this so many times and rehearsed it that he didnt feel the need to look.
everything seemed to go in slow motion when mitch started to run while looking at the audience. ash caught him but mitch had his foot in the wrong place. time stopped for me when mitch went to do the flip. he started to fall to the floor head first. "no Mitchell!" i yelled and started to run towards him.
ash reached out to try to grab his shirt to save him but it was too late. his head hit the floor and he fell limp.
everything went way too fast after that. i went to grab mitch but ash shoved me away "dont touch him or you could kill him" ash yelled. people ran onto the stage and the boys crowded around. some man checked mitchs pulse then started yelled out random commands to other people. "im taking him back stage" ash said holding me tighter and trying to drag me backwards "ash stop" i yelled as the tears started to fall "you cant touch him sam" ash said "hes my little brother, leave me alone" i yelled trying to get to mitchs limp body.
i was lifted off the ground after that by Terry and carried back stage. he dropped me on a couch in our dressing room and i let the tears fall "it was an accident sam, it cant be helped, i was just a step out of time thats all" ash said trying to calm me down "how was you a step ot of time" i yelled scared for my brothers life.
"sam, i bumped into you thats all" ash said trying to make it seem an accident, when in reality it was mine "no i was a step out, i caused this" i muttered "what" perri said walking in "i was a step out and that caused ash to bump into me and miss his step to mitch, this is my fault" i said starting to cry again. this time i was crying because i did this to mitch, i may of taken his life.
that was six months ago now, i was sat in my room like usual drowning in my own sorrows. "sam we are going to the hospital, come get in the car" ellie called up the stairs. i wiped the tears from my face and hurried down the stairs. ellie smiled at me and pulled me into a hug before pulling me out to the car.
after a few minutes i glanced over at her. she smiled and held my hand fermly "he will be ok" she said "you said that the first time we visited him and yet there he is still looking as dead as ever" i mumbled looking back out the window.
"ok lets go" dad said parking he car. we climbed out and did our usual routine of walking to mitchs room. the other lads should be here today as its Saturday. they come every Saturday as a group to see how mitch is getting on.
dad pushed mitchs door open and we all filed into the already busy room. the other boys were all sat in the corner chatting quietly and kim was sat next to mitch as she normally is every day. i walked over to her and sat down in the large chair next to her "how is he" i asked her "hes alive" she sighed flashing me a forced smile. "come here" i said opening my arms for her to hug me. she leaned over and cried sofly into my chest. i held her close and let her do what she needed to do.
i noticed that she never let mitchs hand go unless she needed to leave the room. she spent most nights here next to him and talked to him even if he couldnt hear her. mitch was in a deep coma. he fractured a bone in his neck and the blow to his head caused his brain to shut down. he was unresponsive to anything.
the worst part was that this was partly my fault for missing my step to let ash past. many fans had made it clear they thought it was my fault and even started to go against me being in the team. i dont blame them, i did almost take mitchs life even if the team says different.
the boys have been so supportive over the last six months. they tried to get me back into dancing and going out but i just couldnt do it when mitch was missing out, laying in this cold blank bed looking close to dead.
i missed him being around and his cocky comments when i tried to do flips. i can see it now, the smirk that spreads across his face then he does the same flip i did but his was perfect as usual. i would go to call him a show off but he would say some kind of cocky comment then chuckle before walking away.
"can i speak to mr craskes parents outside please" a doctor said walking in "can i come" i said standing up "maybe you should stay here" dad said going to leave with mom "dad please" i said glancing at mitch. "fine" dad sighed walking out the room. i followed him and shut the door behind me before looking at the doctor "your son is in a bad state and he doesnt seem to be getting better, we advise that you let your son go now and turn off his life support" the doctor said gently "no you cant" i said quickly "sam, hes suffering and letting him go will help him" the doctor said "i will hate you forever if you cut him off" i growled at my parents "hes our son too sam, we love him so much and if hes meant to be better he will fight but hes not fighting" dad said starting to tear up "give him another week please" i begged "sam that wont help" dad said "give him another week" mom said looking at me with eyes full of sadness.
dad sighed then looked at the doctor before nodding. the doctor smiled slightly then walked away. i went back into mitchs room and sat on his bed looking at him "what was said" perri asked "they want to pull the plug" i said not looking away from mitch "are you doing it" ash asked "we have another week" i mumbled. "no you cant" kim and ellie screamed "its whats best for mitch" dad said before storming out. mom scurried after him and kim looked at me "your not serious are you" she asked "he isnt getting better, hes now unresponsive to everything" i said choking up slightly. she looked back at mitch as the tears fell down her face.
she walked over to him and lay her lips on his head. she stayed there for a few seconds and whispered "i love you Mitchell craske" before grabbing her bag and leaving. ellie followed her leaving the six boys in here "so this is it" warren mumbled "no he has another week" i said determined that mitch would fight "sam he will be in a better place" ash said placing his hands on my shoulders "what about us" i said "yeah what about us" ike shrugged "he cant leave us, he cant leave me" i said crying again. ash pulled me into a hug and the other lads soon joined in.
i glanced back over to mitch and his motionless face. hes a fighter, he wont leave me i thought as my tears started to clear up.
