message in a bottle of wine

*seven*

I woke up this morning
imagining the sound of the piano you left here...
I just slept on it.
Thought I heard your voice
calling for me at the door...
Silly me to think you'd be the one
to knock.
I tried everything
to get you out
of my head
of my soul...
But you are everywhere
on my skin
in my lyrics
even in my stupid gallery.
I drank too much,
cried too much,
regretted too much,
did too little
and couldn't make you believe in us.
The pain was ripping me
inside out
and stiches wouldn't fix it,
nothing would fix me.
I woke up this morning,
just one more
where my bed is empty
the room is cold
and I feel so lonely,
but I can't be the first one to call.
I'm a coward again.
And you are everywhere,
like a reminder of everything
I try to forget
even when I know
I won't.