Only You (FLS#2)(ON-GOING)

10

7 days. It has been a week since that bar incident. I was hurt and broken but my feelings will always be greater. Within that week, I tried hard to learn.

How to control my jealousy.

How to control me whenever I'm in distress because of him.

How to always show a strong yet sweet facade.

Pinagaralan ko, hindi para maging mapagpanggap ako sa harapan ni Chasty. But because I know that I need it. I can't just break down and cry whenever I'm hurt.

It's normal to cry our hearts out. To break down. But to cry and be broken every time is really not nice. I somehow need to be brave. Braver even.

To: twin <3

Hey, do u have my future husband's number?

It wasn't even a minute when he texted back.

From: twin <3

Pretty delusional. I don't.

I need to know his number. I need to know a way how to contact me,dahil kung hindi ako makakahanap ng paraan, then how could I get him? It is urgent. I need to start it today. If not now, then when? If not this way, then how?

I really don't have much time seeking some answers so I gotta do it.

But doing things out of the blue isn't always the best. There's also a big possibility that it will fail despite the enormous happiness it may bring if it succeeds.

It may be ridiculous but I have written some sort of a plan.

A plan of what though?

A plan how to make him love me? How to make him notice me? How to make him choose him?

Sa totoo lang, hindi ko alam. I just want us to give it a chance.

We're born to choose what we will regret in the future. Regret because you did not try. Regret because you tried. There are some things that we ought to try, but must not. Pero meron din mga bagay na kailangan natin masubukan.

And I'd rather regret for trying- at least I get to see more.

And maybe, I can start with getting close to him?

His whereabouts, I mean.

It was early on Saturday when I decided to visit their house. Nagsuot lang ako ng simpleng dilaw na dress. I should look fresh like the sun favors me, giving me a refreshing look.

"Eli, please wait for me." ani ko.

"Yes ma'am" he answered seriously.

Gusto ko man siyang sawayin sa pagtawag sa akin ng ma'am ay hindi ko magawa. Kinakabahan ako at namamawis ang mga palad ko.

"Shit! Anong gagawin ko?" I asked Eli.

He looked at me. Confusion is evident on his face.

"Tell me what to do! Come on Eli! Say something."

He laughed before he looked at me through the rear view mirror. Hindi ko magawang bumaba dahil sa kaba. Biglaan ang pagpunta ko and I sure am not invited for some gathering right now. I'm nervous. To see their huge house or maybe a mansion outside of their gate makes me feel small.

Sarado ang gate nila na mas lalong nagpakaba sa akin. Paano kung hindi nila ako pagbuksan? It wasn't their office or building, but it feels like you have to have an appointment in order to see them.

"Be yourself Venus. Trust your instinct. Magtiwala ka sa sarili mo." ani Eli.

I looked at him and sighed. I thought his words would make me feel better...

..it somehow made me feel worse.

His words were beautiful but they hurt. I've been myself since day one but all I get is hate.

How to be me without getting hate and pain in return?

I sighed and got out of the car. Pumunta ako sa gate nila at nag-doorbell.

After a minute, I heard a voice.

"Sino po sila?" I think it was their gardener or servant who asked.

"Venus Salvetrios." I said shortly and waited.

After a minute, their gate opened and their maids in uniform welcomed me.

And as I enter set my foot on their territory, I got reminded of my mission. It's always now or never.

Iginiya niya ako sa loob ng bahay sa kanilang receiving area at pinaupo sa isa sa mga sofa. I sat cautiously but maintained my posture. I am a Salvetrios after all.