Heartbeat || PJM

five

I wiped my tears as I opened the door and Jimin immediately pulled me into a hug. But I didn't want him seeing me weak, not again.

I pulled myself out of the hug and looked away, avoiding his confused stare. "Y/n-" The bell went off for class and I took the chance, running past him.

I've cried so many times in front of him. I don't like it, and I don't know why. Friends are there to lean on in hard times, right? But why do I hate it so much?

TIME SKIP

Classes finished and I went quickly out hoping to avoid Jimin, but that failed. As I was walking out of the school, he grabbed my arm and dragged me somewhere behind a wall. I looked away then he asked, "Why are ignoring me?"

I didn't reply, I didn't know what to say. "Why?" I still didn't reply and he sighed before saying, "Will you tell me if I tell you why I've been acting weird?" I snapped my head up.

"I..." he sighed and looked down before whispering, "I like you..."...I was not expecting that. "You... like me? Since when?" "A long time" he whispered again.

I didn't know what to think. He liked me all this time...? That explains why he was sensitive about skinship all of a sudden...

He looked up slowly and said, "I have a plan..." "What kind of-" He suddenly widened his eyes and stepped closer, wrapping his arms around my waist. In a second he smashed his lips against mine and I widened my eyes.

He quickly sped up the kiss before I could process anything, and I tried pushing him but he wouldn't pull back. "The fuck?" I heard someone say and I recognised it as Taehyung's voice. I then got it. Jimin was trying to make Taehyung think that we were a thing. That's his plan.

"The hell?! Are you two dating?!" Jimin pulled back in an instant and looked over at Taehyung, and I did the same. He looked hurt, and angry. His fists were clenched to his side and he was glaring at the both of us.

"What's it to you? You cheated on her if I remember right." He grabbed my arm and pulled me to walk with him. Once we were a good distance I stopped walking and Jimin stopped too.

He sighed and let go of my arm, slowly facing me. "I... I'm sorry I shouldn't have kissed you without your permission I-" "Let's do it" I cut him off. "...H... huh?" "Your plan. Pretend we're a thing-" I then realised that Jimin also liked me, so...

"...We're gonna do it?" I looked into his eyes and a worried expression came in his face. "Won't it hurt you...? I mean, if you like me then..." "I'll be fine" he smiled, but it seemed painful. "Are you sure? I mean we don't have-" "Don't worry about me, just focus on the plan. "

"Of course I'd be worried about you, Jimin!" He sighed and looked down at the ground. "Jimin" I sighed. I know you want to help me and all, but I don't want to make this difficult for you."

He looked up slowly his eyes tearing up. "Difficult? It's already difficult for me, I like you but we only have each other and I don't want to ruin the friendship we have. And... you're going through a break up right now... this plan... it's the closest I'll get to being your real boyfriend."

I parted my lips not knowing what to say, looking down slowly to avoid his gaze. Then I had an idea. I looked up at him."I'll try to like you." He clearly looked taken aback. "I'll... I'll try to like you. I know that people say love can't be forced and blah blah blah, but if it's for you, I'll try my best."

I patted his shoulder and walked past him, sighing as I kept my eyes glued to the ground. Jimin was right, it would be a huge risk, but... it's not like you can stop loving someone that easily, right? I don't want him feeling awkward around me. We'll either be friends, or be dating. We need each other.

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Taehyung didn't react much. Or if he did he didn't show it. We kept up the act though, because it would be questionable and Taehyung might interfere again.

Time passed by quickly. The few months we had left of high school passed, and graduation day was coming up. But I was dreading it, because it's the same day as Taehyung and his fiancé Jennie's marriage.

Well, the time leading up to it also passed by quickly. Before I knew it I was on my doorstep, holding onto the handle of the front door to leave my home.

"When are you going to open it?" I widened my eyes and opened the door, Jimin was leaning against the wall with his arms crossed, staring at the ground.

"...How long were you there for?" "Long enough" he sighed. I noticed that he looked tired, he had bags under his eyes. "Didn't sleep well?" I asked, closing the door and locking it. "I couldn't..." "Neither could I to be honest..." He sighed and said, "Let's go." I nodded and we started walking.

A/n: okie tbh I have no idea what a graduation is like, so I'm just gonna skip to after it

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After the ceremony, we were walking in the direction of my house. "Hey, Jimin, don't you wanna go home? We're both tired." He sighed and said, "I won't be able to sleep anyways."

"Oh yeah..." We just walked to my house in silence and when we got there I plopped right on the couch. Jimin sat down on the couch too but then layed down and pulled me to his chest, wrapping one arm around my waist.

"...Um, Jimin..." I mumbled but it was muffled by his chest. "Let's just stay like this, please" I slowly wrapped an arm around his waist and closed my eyes, feeling relaxed all of a sudden.

He sighed and ran a hand through my hair before asking, "This is the end, right?" I pulled back slightly to look at him. "Of what?" "This fake relationship thing... and we won't even see each other much. We're going college."

"You never know, we might go to the same college. And if not... we can see each other, right? And we have the holidays?" He sighed and said, "I'm going abroad with my parents for the entire holidays." My heart kind of dropped at that.

I hugged him closer but not too tight that I wouldn't be able to speak properly. "...I'm sorry I couldn't get to love you..." He was silent for a bit then said, "It's ok... like everyone says, you can't force love."

I pulled back again and stared at his face. He was handsome, even though he had bags under his eyes he still looked stunning.

I did feel relaxed and safe with him, but I think that's still because we're best friends. I might have some feelings towards him, but I'm not too sure.

I stared at his lips and remembered the first time we first kissed, and the few pecks afterwards to keep the fake relationship going. My heart beat never sped up when we kissed... but why do I feel this now...?

What is it? Longing? Am I just upset that I won't be able to him much anymore? No, it's surely not that...

I stared at his lips for way too long than I should, because before I knew it my lips were on his. Jimin tensed up, and I was shocked too. But I didn't pull back. Not until we were both begging for air.

Jimin stared into my eyes panting lightly and I felt embarrassed for just kissing him like that. I dug my face into his chest my face turning red and my heart started beating ever so slightly faster.

"Sorry..." I whispered but he didn't reply. I waited for a minute before pulling back to see him sleeping, a small smile plastered on his lips. I smiled to myself, he was comfortable enough to fall asleep.

I dug my face back into his chest and closed my eyes, falling asleep too. I definitely have feelings towards him, but I don't know if they're long lasting or strong enough. I guess time will solve everything...