Heartbeat || PJM

eight

A week passed. I had two part time jobs by now, and it was tiring me out. But I pulled through. I didn't want to drop out of college, I would work as hard as I needed to pull through.

Jimin however seemed to be in a bad mood sometimes. I was scared that he had some suspicions, but who wouldn't? I told him that I'm really busy at the moment, but I didn't tell him why. And he wanted to know a reason.

I opened the door to leave for college, rubbing my eyes exhausted. I went to sleep at like 4am yesterday as I came back from home late from work, then I had a lot of homework to do.

I jumped startled when I saw Jimin leaning against the wall next to the door. He sighed and pushed himself off the wall, turning to look at me. He had a blank expression but that changed when he saw my appearance.

"Are you ok? You look... um..." "Terrible? I know" I closed the door and started walking. Jimin caught up to me a few seconds later and grabbed my arm, making me sigh and turn to look at him.

"What's going on, seriously? You're so tired and busy nowadays." "It's nothing, I told you already" I said, tired, only wanting to just crawl back into bed and sleep endlessly.

"It's not nothing, look at you!" I rolled my eyes and tried to pull my arm free but I was way too weak. I winced and his face showed concern before he slowly let go of my arm.

"Y/n" he sighed. "You know I care about you, right? You can tell me what's going on, that's what friends are for, huh?" "I'm just tired... sorry but, I don't feel like talking Jimin" I said quietly before walking off.

Jimin followed from a distance giving me space, and it was silent the whole way.

The day went by very slowly. Me and Jimin barely spoke a word to each other, and it was lunch when I too tired to function anymore. I felt my eyes closing and reopening, drifting off.

JIMIN POV

It was lunch but I couldn't eat a bite. I had no appetite at all, I was too worried about Y/n. Why wouldn't she tell me what's going on? I try to hide it really well, but I can't sleep much. And sometimes I don't have an appetite.

It was getting torturous, and I just wanted to be at ease, knowing what's wrong so that I can help her. Whatever it is, she's exhausted by it.

I sighed, looking up from my untouched food to see Y/n drifting off. She seemed especially tired today. I sighed and got up from my seat, moving to sit on the opposite side next to her instead.

Resting her head on my shoulder, she moved around a bit before digging her face into my neck. I ran my hand through her hair and sighed, closing my eyes.

If she didn't want to tell me what's wrong, I would have to respect that decision and wait. I shouldn't force it out of her.

Y/N POV

"-n, Y/n..." I slowly gained consciousness and felt my head pounding. I groaned and moved closer to the sound, but it stopped as soon as I did so. I opened my eyes slowly and was met with Jimin's wide doe eyes staring into my tired ones.

It took me a minute to realise why he was staring at me like that. I had moved myself to sit on his lap...

"Oh my god" I quickly got off and apologised. He got up awkwardly and scratched the a back of his neck saying, "We should um... get to class." "...Right."

We went our seperate ways, and we didn't meet again after that. Not until the next day, but we barely talked to each other. I noticed that Jimin also looked exhausted but I didn't question it, as I never explained why I was like that so why would he?

When I was walking home I received a call from my father, and I picked it up straight away.

Father

Hello?

Y/n

Yes?

Your mother is getting discharged later... I can come and pick you up... now now but tomorrow morning, is it ok if you miss a day of college?

It's just one day, it'll be ok.

Ok, get ready by 8 tomorrow then, ok?

Ok.

Alright, I'll see you tomorrow.

We both put down the phone and I sighed, realising that I had reached home. I went in and changed, leaving for my shift. I didn't have to work late today, I would be done by 7 so I could get lots of sleep.

TIME SKIP

The bell rang and I went to open the door to see my father. I simply followed him as we were both seemingly deep in thought.

As we were in the car I remembered 5hat I should tell Jimin that I wouldn't be going to college.

You

Jimin

I'm going to my parents house rn so I can't come to college today

sorry, you'll be alone...

He didn't reply until 15 minutes later.

Jimin

oh hey

yeah it's ok

I'll see you tomorrow gtg

yeah see you
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I sighed and then the car stopped so I put my phone down and realised we had arrived. I got out of the car and my father locked it, going to the front door to open it.

"She's in her bedroom, I'm not sure if she'll be awake so be quiet." I nodded and went upstairs, opening her bedroom door slowly and peeking in to see if she was awake or not.

"...[Y/n's fathers name]?" I walked over and smiled sadly at my mother. "It's me, Y/n." She opened her eyes slowly and a small smile appeared on her lips.

I sat down on the edge of the bed, holding her hand and looking at her. "How are you feeling?" "Weak, but I'm better... how is college dear?"

I didn't want her to worry so I responded by saying it's going well. She seemed happy at that and I smiled to cover up the sadness I felt inside. It hurt to be lying to her, but I don't want to give her extra things to worry about.

Her eyes started closing again so I assumed she was really exhausted and wanted to sleep. I sat next to her on the bed, leaning back against the bed frame as I closed my eyes too, letting myself fall asleep.