Pleasures a Crime Worth Committing

Chapter Fourteen: Aftercare

Spencer walked over to the right side of the bed, sitting by the edge, looking at the moonlight through the windows. Moving over to his back, you started to massage it for him, running your hands all the way to his tailbone and right back up to his neck. Your could tell this was helping him wind down, the muscles in his back loosening. While massaging his back, you perched you head up on his shoulder, rubbing the knots out of his back.

"I have the aloe on the desk whenever you want to lie down ." You whispered him his ear, him still sitting on the edge of the bed.

"Thank you Y/N." He said as he looked over his shoulder, starring into your eyes once more. The tension of wanting to kiss him was insane. You could see him looking at your lips, then back up to you. However, if you were to kiss him, you knew that it would just make you fall in love with him even faster. You couldn't fall in love with Spencer, the worry of the relationship not working out made you sad. It's probably in your best interest to keep things friendship based with him. For as long as you can at least.

Spencer moved his head and focused his eyes back to the moon. You could tell he was thinking the same about you, trying to refrain from kissing you.

His body slowly shifted to the bed, lying down on his stomach, his arms placed above his head. You grabbed the aloe from the bedside desk, placing yourself left of him, kneeling next to Spencer's body. His head was facing you, watching you as your opened the lid to the aloe lotion.

Placing the aloe lotion tub next to you, you pulled down his striped pants, revealing his extremely red ass. You didn't realize how much damage you had done up until now.

"Wow Spencer I didn't realize how bad it was till now, are you feeling ok?" Scooping some lotion into your fingertips, you slowly dabbed it onto him.

"In all seriousness Y/N, it's fine. I've been struck five times more than what you did tonight, with the same force. Tonight wasn't as bad as things can get." He said to you, watching you rub the aloe lotion into his skin, massaging it.

"I'm just not used to doing this stuff with guys. You know, being the dominant and everything. I usually do this with girls." Rubbing in the last bit of aloe onto his skin, you slowly and carefully moved his pants back up to his waist, covering his ass.

"I know, I'm honestly not super used to it either. I have only had girls do this to me a couple times. This might come as a surprise to you, but I have done this stuff with guys before." Spencer added, slowly moving to his back.

Wait what? Spencer Reid has done this stuff with guys? Not that it was a bad thing though. I mean you are bisexual, so you don't have anything against it. It just came as a shock to you.

"Really Spencer? I mean that's cool and all with me, but have you ever seriously dated a guy or just done this stuff with them?"

"Mostly this stuff. I can't see myself dating a guy or being in a serious relationship with one, but I enjoy exploring bdsm with different people, even guys. Have you ever seriously been with a girl?" He asked, now laying down next to you.

As you began to lay on your back next to him, you placed you hand near his, tilting your head in the bed to face him.

"I have, I'm actually bisexual so I have been with girls and guys before. Not just for bdsm, but in serious relationships. My last one ended about 2 years ago with a girl, she wasn't into bdsm, but we were together for about a year. I pretty much had to end it because of this job." It's true, you would have stayed with her. It's just moving from New York City all the way to Virginia was definitely going to make things long-distance. She didn't seem like that type of girl anyways.

Spencer didn't look surprised by this. Was it that obvious your a raging bisexual?

"I'm not super surprised, by the was you handled tonight and how well you did, it was easy to assume you've done this before. You've never come out to the team though, is this something private?" He searches your face for an answer, that was one habit of his he couldn't seem to break.

"Not really, I'm pretty open with my sexuality, it's just never really come up in conversation." Your voice faded, as once again, you caught Spencer starring in your eyes.

For a second, Spencer did not respond to what you had said. Then he grabbed your right wrist and looked at it.

He was now starring at the scar he had left on your wrist, almost looking astonished by what he had done to you.

After about a week of the cut being covered, it started to scab over. At this point, it was starting to scar on your arm. It's not like the scar is super big, but it's still there. When you would look at it, it was still a slight reminder of how in that moment, you felt like you couldn't trust Spencer. In that moment, you don't even know if that was Spencer you were with.

"Again Y/N, I am really sorry about that. The person that did that to you was not me. I don't know what happened in that moment, but my personality just totally changed. It's not like I have schizophrenia or anything like my mom, I would have had a break by now, it's just something totally flipped at me. I really hope we can continue this, I am very happy with helping you explore this side of you. If that's all right with you." Spencer was holding your hand, almost as if he wasn't aware of what he was doing. It was just his instinct.

"Do you think that after all we've done tonight I don't want to keep pursuing this with you? I really do enjoy having you help me explore the side of me a little more. Especially us being friends and all, it really makes me feel a lot more comfortable." You said as your fingers wrapped around his.

"Yeah, I'm glad being friends helps Y/N." After he said this, he let go of your hand, shifting himself under the sheets. Did this make him upset? I mean, he was the one who tried to make it pretty clear that you were just friends. Shifting yourself into the sheets with him you couldn't help but ask him one last time-

"Do you still want me to stay Spence?" You snuggled under the covers next to him, watching him look you up and down.

"Of course I do." He chuckled at his own words.

Just as Spence put his hands behind his head, getting ready to finally drift off into sleep, you slowly wiggled over to his side. You put your arm on his chest and nuzzled your face into the corner of his arm. He said he liked cuddles, right?

Once you were comfortably laying on top of his chest, you could hear his heart rate increasing. He liked this, which is why you stayed on his chest for the rest of the night, eventually falling asleep.

Was this what life would be like with Spencer Reid? Nights of endless deep conversations and warm cuddles? Was he trying to sweeten the deal or something? You know deep down his intent was for this to be strictly a friend thing, but you just couldn't help yourself. Sometimes when he would look at you across the office, you just wanted to run into his arms and kiss him, but you couldn't do that. The one guy that you actually couldn't even dream of being with, would eventually be the one who would make you resign. That's why this relationship has to strictly stay friendship-based, if it gets out of control, both of you could end up losing your jobs. Don't even get started on Spencer and JJ's relationship. Yeah sure, JJ was married with kids and Spencer didn't really seem like her type, but something was definitely there. Just the way they would eye each other and how smoothly they could both talk, it made you jealous.

A girl can dream I guess...

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