*Bethany*
My conscious screamed repeatedly at me, empty words echoed through my head like a broken record player. I placed my hands to the side of my head near my temples. They mocked me laughing and squealing with glee.
Remember.
Remember.
"Remember!" I screamed to myself, rattling my skull. "Remember." I whispered to myself. Everything was wrong, there was missing bits and pieces, nothing made sense. My head is throbbing, my stomach is twisting and my heart is pounding.
I let loose a heart wrenching sob. I'm falling apart. My hair falls into my face and I wonder what the hell I did to deserve this. I laugh, causing me to ponder my state of mental stability.
"Fate's a b*tch.""Why am I breaking down? Why? Why why why why?" I whine.
"This isn't the first time. I mean-"I close my eyes for a second, and see him. He's permanently etched into my brain and I see him every time I close my eyes. I shake momentarily breaking my fetal position I held in the dark corner.
His obsidian eyes- obsidian? No, this isn't right. Is it? I was so angry and confused. Twisted images flash contorted and like a slideshow playing one after the next mixed and out of order. I had no way of organizing and telling apart which was which.
Spencer's laugh swallows my thoughts and for a moment, for a moment I smile. In midst of that, it was there. A kind, genuine laugh that a small part of me told I'd once loved and craved to hear. I shook my head away as the constant replay return of mockery and taunts refilled my brain. I dragged my nails down my face; wet and slick blood slid down my cheeks.
Broken images of Spencer and Daniel pooled in my mind and I clenched my eye shut and hugged my chest.
"I'm a hot mess." I whispered to the dark that surrounded me.
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FanfictionBethany Walters and Spencer Reid are happy after a month of hell. After tragedy strikes Bethany, the two of them fall into loose mental states. Bethany battling with post traumatic psychosis, and Spencer's schizophrenia is triggered, they struggle t...