Alexandra Verlino

Ep 18: Inner Heart

The discussion really took longer than I thought. I figured out something new of her. I really am discovering a whole new world within my world. Everything that is been shared is like me discovering something new. I figured how little had I know about all things that had been happening in my life. I realize I don't really have time to focus on other things since I am working mostly on my team and for the company. I turn my head to Stella a few times before I continue, so that I can predict if she's ready for me to reveal what I know about her. Also, it is mostly because I don't want her to stress out about the things she couldn't control. She adds up few words that I need to remember, emphasizing how much she concerns about how my feelings would have change if I figured how fragile her entire body is. Among all things, I am mad that she thinks of me first and worrying if I can live with her being a total fraud person. That she is not that much strong. That she could have just lose her life if she bumps her head a bit stronger. I swear I really just want to scream to her that nothing is going to change on how I feel about her. That I like her for who she is. I don't care about her probabilities of not being "human" before. What makes she thinks I will change now, despite being mere human that needs support to live? If anything, I would be more than glad to protect her from all the dangers. I really wish she would have known that. I wish she could read my mind, my heart, and knows that I am not lying. Not in one moment that I even feel like having a change in my heart. She might despise her family, but all I know is I want to thank them for keeping her alive, so that she meets me in her life. So that she is with me today, alive and healthy. That I am able to love someone like her, who is so selfless. She has been protecting so many people before, now it's our turn to do that. The greatest thing she ever done is to save all Wonder Girls' members' life. They are all free, while she is now facing the loss of her family member as a return. If anything, I want her for once, to think about herself first before anyone. Just for once! Ask and scream that she wants to run, not facing all these dangers. I would gladly send her away to Shank if she ever wants a new life. But she wanted to come back. She wanted to face the challenge face to face. To figure out the truth about herself. To solve the mystery that we all have been surrounded with. All my effort to save her was easily passed on to Wonder Girls, so they can live their life. Instead of saving her own life, she puts them first before herself. I don't have to guess the probability that she would even try to let us all stay there so we can be safe, and she will come back alone to find out the truth. Who does she thinks she is? Superhero? Her outside seems so tough and full of curse words, but all her actions only will benefits others. How does this girl even live her life, though?

One thing I pointed out after the discussion, is the thumb drive. She might have been too engrossed with her emotional roller coaster earlier that she forgets about the most important details, but I would say this is not her fault at all. I am here. I can remind her of anything she seems to forget. Mr. Jung says that they are still indeed searching for it as it contains most information from Alexandra's biological body. I tell Stella to not worry about the threat the letter has to offer, as they already cancelled her contract with JYP. The only confirmation that I need to find out is whether she is still having her contract valid with YG and SM. Those competitions were not supposed to be this far. They treat our life as if it is some games that can be resetting once it is on their edge of losing. The only difference is that this is not a game. Lives were lost, and we won't be able to regain those back.

I also figured that there is this some gangs, or mafia groups that had been aiming to retrieve all Alexandra's money left by both her fathers. She holds the key to find that wealth, which by right, would make her able to even buy this whole country if she intended to. I don't exactly know how much those worth, but all the researches on her, plus the work her both dads' been doing, those are not some small sum of money. It is some advance to the future. To have a very strong body defense mechanism that can heal as fast when they are hurt. Which means...