Anger Management- Euphoria

twenty

Fortunately, I lived to see Monday. It would have been a good thing any other Monday, but not today. Dealing with life just felt like too much work now. Both Saturday night and last night, the faces of Bruce and Mouse tormented my dreams, my imagination playing with my fears. 

My mother didn't tell me how she was going to pay back the money, she didn't want me involved: at all. And I don't know if it was because I had seen her threatened at gun point but I had a new appreciation for my mother. 

Another thing that had been bothering me was the connection with Fez, he had been in the business long enough to know that my father was involved and he didn't tell me shit. I needed time to adjust to this new found informaton before talking to him again. 

That Monday, I itched to tell Kat all about what had happened. I was close with Kat, I had told her plenty of personal things and this was as personal as it got. There was no denying that Kat was a good friend, maybe the most obervant one but a good one. 

Catching Kat before first period, I had every intention of telling her but something stopped me. She looked upset, like she was filled with anxiety. 

Her eyes analyzed everyone's expressions around us, expecting judgement. This was different than her care-free attitude. 

"What's going on Kat?" I asked, taking quick strides to keep up with her anxiety driven pace. 

Kat glanced in my direction, she scoffed like I had told a joke. "Don't act like you haven't seen it." 

"Seen what?" 

Kat shook her head, her cheeks were red with humiliation. "I swear it isn't me." 

What the fuck is she talking about? 

"Kat, I genuinely don't know what you're talking about." I stated, pulling her to stop but she yanked her arm away. 

"Then it doesn't matter. See you later." she said, continuing down the almost vacant hallway. 

During first period, I had no choice but to text Jules about Kat. 

iMessage to Jules 

WHAT THE FUCK IS GOING ON WITH KAT?!

iMessage from Jules

WATCH THIS.

Jules sent me a link to pornhub, and immeditately my heart sank into my stomach. It was definitely Kat in the video. The shot was mostly of her back and ass but that was clearly her hair and her voice. 

So this is what was wrong. Her sex tape leaked. I wondered who the guy was. The only person I knew that she slept with was Weston. 

The thoughts of sex brought Nate into my mind and how much I missed him. But he was really confusing me at this point. He told me that he was done with me and then he had no problem stating that I belonged to him. The last statement I denied but even I had my doubts about that one. I really dreaded seeing him again and I couldn't wait all at once. But what did he want with me? 

These thoughts bothered me throughout the day, I was left alone with them since Kat didn't talk to me for the rest of the day. 

Well, I was about to find out the answers. Right after last period, Nate didn't wait to approach me. Though, he didn't talk much. He stared down at me for half second before leaning down and kissing me. 

Shock aside, it took no thoughts to kiss him back. It felt so natural, smooth. Electricity surged through me again. Every negative thought kicked out of my mind as his lips melted with mine. This kiss felt different than our others. Before there was a sense of urgency to his mouth but now it was calm like he was finding shelter in the middle of a storm. And then, I knew, he lied about just wanting to fuck me. He felt the same way about me as I felt about him. 

He pulled away breathless. He had kissed me in front of everyone and they were all staring. I prayed that he had broken up with Maddy before doing this. Not because I wanted to spare that bitch's feelings. It was mostly because she would probably pull some kind of bullshit and I didn't want her to have a perfectly solid reason.  

Nate looked at me with certain eyes, there were gold specks in his eyes. He wanted me to say something, anything. But I didn't know what to say. 

"Hey." Nate said, giving up on waiting. 

I stared up at him, awe struck in the revelation our kiss just made. It seemed like a tidal wave of euphoria sweeping over me. 

"Are you going to say anything?" Nate questioned, a tinge of hurt in his voice. The idea of him doubting my feelings kicked me straight into gear. 

I nodded, wanting to assure him. "I don't know what to say. All of these people are staring."

He laughed, looking around at the students who were still looking. "We gave them a good show." 

I could tell I was blushing based on the heat rising in my cheeks, it made him smile. "Did you have this planned since Saturday?"

Nate shook his head. "I actually didn't plan this. All I know is that...I love you."

And in that moment, time stopped.