Blood Dept: Trail Of Corpses

Chapter 15: Breakdown

I went to my room to stuff all of my clothes back into my bag, I had plenty of clothes combinations for a week or two out on vacation but now they just took up space. Luckily, I didn't bring too much so for me it was quick besides my shoes which were problematic to put back into the bag.
I didn't hear Tsuki leave the couch nor have I heard Sora move ever since she went up the stairway, it gave me an anxious feeling that she was watching us and was one of them in disguise and everything was just planned somehow. I ended up getting sidetracked by this idea and started to feel distrust of her, but why would she do that? Why would she lead us to our doom and if she was a part of them why wasn't she there during the ritual...? I had to force myself to calm down. I was thinking too much again...

I sighed deeply before I was knocked out of my thoughts by Amber entering the room, I was scared senseless by her seemingly loud entering. I looked back at her for a bit but she somewhat ignored me, she never asked if I was okay or anything, did she care? I knew these people for years of course they did right?

I stuffed my last pair of shoes into my bag, I finally heard movement outside the room but I continued to be tense like a deer in headlights, my body wouldn't let me move I was just standing there with my bag at hand for a while before Ambers hand touched my shoulder.
"Ken, what is going on with you..?" She said as I could finally move again and I looked over my shoulder at her, she didn't look worried at the slightest with those sharp and straight-to-the-point type of eyes.

"Were you not there that night? Hanging over the fire about to die? Are you not traumatized!? Was this all a stupid game!?" I snapped, I was usually a laid-back dude so for her to see me in such an inraged mood was shockingly surprising.
She was speechless as if she regretted asking me that question, her dreads were in a ponytail and she wore a tan and green hood with regular blue skinny jeans with converses.

"You all act like I wasn't there with the knife! LIKE I WASN'T THE ONE TOLD TO KILL YOU BOTH!" My voice kept raising it was definite that everyone in the house could hear me. "The red lights around the trees! The devil was there with us! You can't just brush that off!" I went on, I was on the verge of crying and I couldn't keep the feelings in any longer. the anxiousness, the fear,  and the hunger for comfort but not trusting anyone enough or even yourself to get it.

Amber looked at me with wide eyes, she backed away from me a bit as if a large wind blew over her and her face was disturbed and concerned.
"Ken..?" She finally got out "Sorry..." She added as she glanced back at the door, I could tell she wanted to leave me there but was hesitating.
I sat on the floor on my knees with my fists to the floor, I was crying a puddle on the floor, I would probably have to clean that up later.
Amber knelt beside me laying her arm on me, she silently comforted me. At least she seemed to care.

No one dared to enter the room I and Amber were in, I wouldn't either but I was surprised Tsuki didn't, It took a lot for him to stay away from a person in distress.
"You have to move on Ken, I know it is traumatizing but if you let it control your life it will gobble you up and there's no way back after that." She said with a sigh patting my back.
I couldn't get my words out, they would probably get drowned in my tears.
"It will be okay, we will get the money. We will all get out of it alive." She tried to reassure me, but she still seemed emotionless towards the situation. It barely helped.