She came Back

Drowning

I was here. The place where Julie and I broke up 2 years ago. This place had memories I didn't want to recall but had to. In order to let go of everything we once had, I have to face the pain I once got. 

I walked around the Seaside Peir. The first thing I saw was the ferry stand. The ferry stand that brought back some good memoires.

"Oh stop" Julie giggled while I was standing next to a ferry stand poking her tummy. I had to admit, it was the cutest thing I saw.
"Make me" I said, with a wink, now slipping my arms around her waist, getting more close then even. Eventually making out noses touch, I looked her in the eye, full of lust.
"I love you" I said earning a big smile from Julie.
"And I love you" she replied earning a big smile from me.

I shook off that flashback. I didn't want to think about those lovey-dovey sences with Julie. I was here, so I could let go of her. Because honestly, I never had learned to let go of her since I didn't want to. As I kept walking, I saw couple holding. I looked away. Remembering Julie and I. I didn't want to remember that. So I ran to the Peir;  memory of the worst part of our relationship. The break up.

I arrived. Stood there surprised. It was the same as I remembered. You see, I haven't visited this place for 2 years as I didn't want to remember. But now it's different. Flashbacks apprearing making my heartbeat rise.

"Stop." She screamed. I was shocked. I just got her some flowers. What had happened to her? 
"Are you ok Julie?" I asked trembling as she never screamed at me before.
"Just stop. Stop. I can't do this relationship anymore. I'm moving to america and my dad has planned an arranged married for me. I think it's better that you forget about me" she said hoarsly. Looking away from me. The flowers that I held, dropped to the ground. My knees feeling weaker by the second.
"Wh-what?" I stuttered. Was she saying that we brake up?" We have been together for 2 years now, how can you just say that and feel nothing? Did you even love me?" I countinued. My eyes started tearing up but I refused to let it out. 
"It's not that, I just can't do this anymore. I am going to leave tonight." She said. With that I walked to her, pulling her for face me. Her eyes puffy. My pissed off face soothed when I saw her hurt expression.
"Do you really want to leave me?" I asked looking into her eyes. She shaked her hair and looked up at me, strongly.
"Yes." She said. And that was it. My hands fell from her shoulders and I stared to walk a few steps back, still looking in her eyes. I didn't know how far I walked back but evenutally I reached the edge. Loosing my balance because of the words Julie said. I was falling into the Ocean. I heared Julie call out my name. But It was too late. I was already drowning. I refused to swim above since I couldn't move. My body was numb. I was drowning. Loosing consious. The Ocean was getting darker and darker while my lung were loosing of out air. I gave up. Closed my eyes and just let myself drown and suffocate.

I stopped day dreaming and came back to reality. You might be wondering how am I still alive. You see, after I drowned, some authorities and mariners helped me back to surface and took me to a hospital.But by the time I was back to breathing air instead of water, Julie had already left for America. Leaving me shattered. Making me cry every night and try to contact her but she deleted all her contacts. I had 3 am breakdowns because of that brake up. I was a wreck. These kind memories gave me the worst feelings. Like I wanted to run away somewhere. Anywhere. But I couldn't. There were too many things to leave behind. The kiss Anna and I had. Julie that was now in my class. My studies. My life. Everything. I looked around for a while and found a bench. I walked over to it, sitting down and sighed heavily and cupped my face in my hands.

"I knew you were here" said a familiar. I looked up and was feeling more tired that ever. It was Julie.