She came Back

Confession

It was New Years Eve. It was 5pm. Almost time to meet Anna. I don't even know why she had called me to meet her and when I asked for answers, she had refused to say anything. "Oh what's so top secret that she had to tell me in person?" I said to myself while making weird geustures with my arms. I sighed, giving up on thinking what was that she wanted. I took my wallet and phone and left my house.

I wore all black, as usual. When I arrived the district which was near where Anna told me to meet her, I checked the time on my phone, 7:03 pm.

" Holy F*ck." I swore realizing that I was late. I ran and ran till I was where me and Anna's usual place was when we were together, The rooftop of our favorite mall, Elements. I was already a few minutes late so I started running again. When I arrive at the rooftop, I saw Anna sitting alone. Her hands cuppining her face.

I sat down next to her. I knew she could feel my presence when she flinched.

"Hey, you wanted to meet me?"

"Hmm"

"So...... what's so important" I said trying my best to sound as cheerful as possible.

She slowly lifted up her head. Now I could clearly see her swollen bloodshut eyes. She was crying. Before I could even ask a question, I took her into a hug. I don't know why I did that but I'm glad I did. Even tho she was my ex, she was still human. She still had feelings. She still had her rights and I had to be a good friend. I patted her back gently saying " It's ok, everything is going to be fine." Even tho I didn't know what had happened.

"He.... left me." She stuttered while she was sobbing.

And then it hit me like an arrow. She was heart broken. But what was I supposed to do. Afterall I didn't have a heart. Jess cheated me. The pain I got changed me, but The pain Anna is getting, hurts her. The most I could do right now was listen.

She told me everything. How she and her boyfriend, Jimmy, were so happy but then one day she found Jimmy was loosing feelings for her. She tried her best to stop him from loosing feelings, but sadly, she failed. After a few days, Jimmy left her.

I couldn't help but pity her. I mean, it's so sad that she was so happy with him and he left her. Imagine, if you were in a relationship but then your partner looses feelings for you, how would you feel? You would question yourself and try harder to make the relationship work. But one-sided love can mentally destroy you. And thats what had happened to Anna. It destroyed her.

Now she was pouring herself out to me. She was sayings all these words that left me more traumatized than ever. I wanted her to stop, not because I was getting more and more frightened by the minute but because she was stating these negative words in her mind that were consuming her. I need to stop her. I wasn't thinking anymore.

I grabbed her by the shoulders telling her to stop. She wasn't listening. So I grabbed her by the throat, but I didn't choke her. Instead I kissed her. And I kept kissing her. I know its was a stupid move but she needed something to divert her mind from Jimmy and it looks like, I'm the diversion.

The kiss wasn't slow or neither was it gentle. It was rough and passionate. I didn't know what came over us, but we didn't want to stop. I could feel her tears slowing down and soon stopping. But now she was trying to take control. But before she could do that. I took her wrists and pinned her to the nearest wall. Still kissing. Our lips and tounges exploring each other. I let go of her arms and grabbed her neck with one hand and played with her hair with the other. I knew she was having fun because she pulled me closer to her. Luckily we were in the corner so no one could notice our over-the-limit make out sence.

After a minute or two, we both stopped. Gasping for air.

"I'm sorry" I stared, still gasping for air.

"It's ok. I needed that anyways" she said after 10 seconds of scilence.

" Just think of me as Jimmy and think that whatever we did here, as a goodbye kiss" I stated knowing it might be the right thing to do.

"Thanks" she said.

With that, I left saying our goodbyes. I was used once again. I was used for lust in a form of someone else. I shrugged. I wasn't surprised. I was used to being used.

I found myself lost. I guess I didn't know where I was walking to when my thoughts were controlling me. I looked around for a while and saw a beach nearby.

"Thank god" I mummered.

I walked on the beach and sat by the coast. Took out a ciggarette from my pocket and started smoking again. I wasn't thinking this time tho. The night view of the beach was consuming me this time. It looked so beautiful. It reminded me of my first date with my first love, Julie.