If Only

Chapter 14

"Y/N?" The man asked, his eyes widening.

"Hey Hoseok... Long time no see." I replied quietly.

Hoseok smiled at me, nodding his head and I returned the gesture awkwardly.

I hadn't seen Hoseok for over 3 years and wow, had he changed.

~Flashback~

A little over 3 years ago

"Y/N-ah!" A voice called out to me.

I turned, looking behind me to find a grinning boy sprinting towards me. I grinned and stopped walking, letting him catch up to me. Once he did, he slung his arm over my shoulder, ruffling my hair.

"Ay! Hobi, the hell?" I exclaimed, shoving him with my shoulder.

Hobi grinned his gummy smile at me and shook his light brown out of his face. We began walking again, his arm still resting on my shoulders.

"How was class, dongsaeng?" He asked, quickening his pace to walk backwards in front of me.

I sighed and rubbed my temple, "It was shit. I seriously need a break from Mr. Leon."

Hobi chuckled, "Yikes, that sucks ass... Oh!" He suddenly exclaimed, his face lighting up in excitement, "I have the perfect idea to make you feel better!"

I glanced up at him, shifting my bag and raising my eyebrows at him.

"I dunno..." I started to protest but Hobi's pouty face made me stop, "Fine."

He grinned at me and grabbed my hand, pulling me.

"Hell yeah! Come on!"

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"I seriously can't believe I let you talk me into getting drunk with you last night!" I complained, dragging my feet as we walked to our college campus.

Hobi just shurgged and grinned, "You seemed like you enjoyed it, dongsaeng."

I rolled my eyes at him but smiled. It was true, I did enjoy it. Hobi was really the only person who could make me feel better. When I was with him I never thought about the bad stuff going on in my life. And the best part, we were always together.

Hobi had been my best friend for almost 4 whole years. We met during our first year at Kyungbuk College  where we discovered we were both in business majors. We had been in the same business class for all 4 years, which was extremely lucky.

Sadly we had to take 3 more classes our last 2 years in order to pass. Hobi was an amazing dancer and so both years he would take two dance classes. And every year, he would beg me to join at least one. And I did.

We both had family problems and would often recieve distressed calls from each other at 2 in the morning. But that didn't matter, because we had each other.

"Hey Y/N-ah," Hobi turned to look at me, "Could you meet me after class at the spot? I have something important I need to tell you..."

I looked over at him and nodded once I saw his face was serious, "Sure, see ya."

We gave each other a hug and I skipped off to class, wondering what he needed to tell me that was of such importance.

My business management class ended a little earlier than expected and I made my way over to our 'spot'. I passed a small group of girls who glared at me. I ignored them and continued my course. Most girls hated me because I was so close with Hoseok. But I don't care.

I reached the large willow tree we usually hung out at and plopped down, swinging my backpack next to me. I leaned back against the tree and closed my eyes as I waited for Hobi to show.
A little while passed before I heard someone sit down next to me. I opened my eyes and turned my head to look. Hoseok smiled at me and I grinned.

"So," I started, looking back out at the pavilion in front of us, "What did you want to tell me, hyung?"

He let out in a deep breath and paused, licking his lips before continuing, "Now I know that what I'm about to say might change everything... but I need to say it."

I looked over at him, my face filled with confusion. I nudged him when he didn't continue.

"Whatever it is you're going to say won't change shit Hobi, you know that! Friends forever."

"That's the thing- I don't want to just be friends with you, Y/N." Hobi groaned out, closing his eyes.

"What?"
Time stopped as my brain wrapped around what he said. My eyes widened and I gulped.

"No..." I quietly said, "No, Hobi. We are friends, we can't be-"

"Why not." He interrupted, staring straight into my eyes.

"I-" I stammered, tears threatening to appear in my eyes, "We- we can't Hoseok because-" I paused, breathing deeply before continuing, "Because I'm moving; to Seoul, and I want to start fresh there. I hate this goddamn town, Hobi, you know that. And I want to- to restart my life in Seoul. By myself."

Hoseok froze, his eyes narrowing, "What the hell, Y/N?!" He angrily exclaimed, "When were you going to tell me, huh?! Did you just forgot to mention it to your fucking best friend?!"

Now I was the one frozen, silent tears falling down my cheeks.

"Did you ever even think about me?!" He continued yelling at me, "I fucking love you, Y/N! And now you're leaving me!"

Hoseok stood up angrily and grabbed his backpack, starting to walk away. I jumped up and grabbed his hand, trying to pull him back.

"No! Wait!" I exclaimed, sobbing as he yanked his arm out from my grip.

"You are in no position to tell me to stay." Hoseok growled out, a lone tear sliding down his face.

~End of flashback~

That was the last day I saw him. At least, until today.

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Sorry for the shorter chapter yall!