If Only

Chapter 11

☆Y/N POV☆

I hadn't heard Jungkook talk for a while and I was beginning to worry that Taehyung had killed him. I bit my lip, trying to determine whether to go in or not. As I lifted my hand to knock, the door opened and I stumbled into the room, almost slamming into Jungkook.

"Woah there!" He exclaimed, grabbing my shoulders to steady me, "Did you need to talk to Mr. Kim?"

I shook my head and stepped away from Jungkook, a light blush settling on my cheeks.

"Are you guys finished?" I asked, avoiding eye contact with Taehyung.

Jungkook nodded and when Taehyung turned away, he leaned down.

"Could I talk to you, Y/N?" He whispered.

I looked at him skeptically and he gave me his puppy eyes. I sighed and nodded, glancing over at Taehyung. He quickly looked over at me and our eyes connected. His bore into mine, refusing to allow me to look away. I gulped and finally tore my eyes away from his. I smiled at Jungkook.

"I'll walk you out." I told him, pulling him away from Taehyung. As we walked away, I looked back at Taehyung to find his eyes glued on me.

"What is it?" I hissed at Jungkook once we reached the hallway. He took in a nervous breath and looked around before leaning closer to my face.

"What do you think about homosexuality?"

"I- um- what?" I stammered, taken back by the question.

Jungkook exhaled and quickly replied, "Homosexuality. You know like, having sexual feelings towards someone of the same sex?"

I smiled, "I know what that means silly. And I'm cool with it. I mean, you love who you love!" I finished, poking his chest with my finger playfully, "Why do you ask?"

He bit his lip nervously and ran his hand through his hair. I looked questioning at him.

"Well?" I prompted, nudging him with my hand.

"I um..." Jungkook started, before looking down, "I think I'm- I'm- I'm gay..."

I gasped and grabbed his hands, "Omg, really!?" I exclaimed, excitedly.

Jungkook looked up at me and nodded slowly, a confused expression on his face. I grinned and leaned in, dropping his hands to give him a giant hug.

"I'm so happy for you! When did you find out?"

He grinned at me as I pulled away, "Well, I have to meet this guy over dinner to discuss business arrangements and I'm really, REALLY excited! I keep seeing his face everywhere I go and I'm always checking my watch to see what time it is."

We both squealed quietly, jumping up and down. Jungkook looked down at his watch and his eyes sparkled as he looked at the time. He looked back at me and grinned. I took the hint.

"Go get him Tiger!" I exclaimed, pushing him lightly towards the door.
Jungkook smiled and pulled me into a tight hug.

"Thank you for being so supportive, Y/N." Jungkook whispered in my ear and I smiled.

"Of course."

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I walked back to my desk, smiling as I sat down.

'I'm so proud of Jungkook!' I thought to myself, as I wrote Mr. Kim's schedule down on a piece of paper. I glanced up at the clock. 4:27pm. Thank god today is Friday. The intercom buzzed just as it hit 4:30 and I groaned.

"Yes Mr. Kim?" I asked into the intercom. I paused, waiting for his reply. The only thing that greeted me was silence.

I frowned, "Mr. Kim?"

Again, nothing. I stood up and sighed as I walked over to the door. I opened it and closed it behind me. As I turned to face his desk, I found him looking out the window.

"Mr. Kim." I called out. When he didn't move I called out again, "Mr. Kim?"

I quickly walked over to where he was standing. I leaned over to see his face. His eyes were staring straight ahead, tearing streaming into his cheeks.

"Taehyung?" I asked quietly, gingerly touching his arm.

Taehyung flinched and finally turned to me. His mouth was open slightly and his eyes were filled with anguish. I sucked in a breath and quickly pulled him close to me. I wrapped my arms around him, holding him tightly. My thumb gently rubbed the back of his neck and head as I squeezed my eyes shut.

I felt him shift and quickly wrap his own arms around me. He shuddered into my embrace as his quiet sobs filled the room. I tightened my hold on him and continued to stroke his head. He suddenly pulled away from me and grabbed my shoulders.

"You're not going to leave me right?" Taehyung asked quietly, staring into my eyes, "You won't leave me like they did right? Please don't leave me, Y/N..." His voice cracked as a sob escaped his lips.

My heart broke as I looked at him. I had never seen Taehyung look this vulnerable.

"Of course I'm not going to leave you." I whispered, caressing his cheeks softly.

He smiled through his tears and I kissed his nose gently. I reached over to grab a tissue and began softly wiping his tears away. Once I had set the tissue down, Taehyung wrapped his arms around me, pulling me close. I paused before doing the same.

"Can we just stay like this for a while?" He whispered to me.

I nodded and he set his chin on my shoulder. Suddenly he took my hair out of the rubberband that held it up and let it cascade down. I didn't say anything. He buried his face in my hair and neck, breathing deeply.

After sitting there for a while, Taehyung pulled back. His tears were gone but his eyes were still red. I smiled grimly at him and he chuckled.

"Sorry," He sniffed, "I'm just a little stressed out."

I rolled my eyes and gently guided him to the door, grabbing his keys as we walked past his desk.

"Stressed out, my ass." I replied and he snorted, " You obviously don't feel like yourself and you need rest, Taehyung." I said, quieter.

He nodded and looked over at me, "Ok..." He paused before smiling, "Take care of me Y/N. Nurse me back to health." He joked.

I chuckled and nudged him slightly, "Shut up, you're wearing yourself out more by making those stupid jokes."

Taehyung laughed softly and let out a sigh as I helped him into the passenger seat of his car.

"I can drive my own damn car, Y/N." He told me, shifting in his seat.
I hopped into the driver's seat and started the car.

"Shut up and let me take care of you, dumbass." I retorted, smiling at him. He smiled back and we took off towards his apartment.