The Seed

Budding

KING'S POV

3 Weeks. Yeah it's been 3 weeks since that incident at the flower shop happened and since then Ai'Ram has been doing his very best to avoid me. Why did I think of that? It's simple. He never appears where I am and during those events when he was actually there, I would notice him excuse himself and leave just when I was coming at their location. Am I pissed because of that? Well hell yeah! I know I was the one who asked him to get lost but I didn't mean that entirely ok. He knows that right? (A/N : Yeah Nong he does. That's why he's avoiding you like a plague. 😑)

As I was saying, so yeah Ai'Ning has been avoiding me at any given chance and I don't even know how to approach him and talk about what happened at the camp. I may have felt guilty of what I said and after sorting my feelings out I realized that I may have like him more than a friend. My feelings for him have already crossed the boundaries of being friends/brothers/P'Nong. But how am I suppose to tell him that. The heck, I'm not even sure if he actually feels the same way. He told me once that the one that understands him the most was me. But there's a lot of gray area on that statement. What if he just sees me a close friend or a brother. That can be possible right?

I was sitting alone in the library drowning in my thoughts when I felt a slight tap on my right shoulder. It was Bohn together with the gang.

"Friend you seem to be deep in thought again. Care to share the burden to us?" He said while taking a seat on my left side while Boss, Mek and Tee sat across me.

"Yeah. You seem to be really off this past few weeks. I know we joke a lot with each other but you know you can count on us when things get serious right?" Boss added.

I looked at them and smiled a bit. I've known these guys for quite some time and they may seem like kids at times but they can really be dependable when needed.

I sighed and started. "What if I tell you guys that I like someone? And that someone is a guy. What would you guys think?"

"Seriously Ai'King?! You're asking our group that question? We didn't have a problem with Bohn having Duen as a lover and I didn't even bat an eye upon knowing that Mek and Boss are actual couples. So what makes you think that I'd think differently of you? I might just get a bit annoyed though since I'd be totally left out as the only single person in the group." Tee joked which made me chuckle.

"But who's the lucky guy that caught the heart of the Mighty King?" Mek asked.

"Well that's the thing. I'm still in the process of trying to fully figure out what I feel for him. I may have accepted the fact that I like him but I still not sure as to what extent that like is. Plus, I'm also not sure if he feels the same way. For all I know, he might just be thinking of me as his brother or a friend." I said.

"Have you tried talking to him then?" Bohn asked.

"Well that's the thing. I may have asked him to get out of my sight during that moment when I was still confused with what I was feeling." I answered.

"Wow! For someone who considered to be the smartest in our faculty, you sure are dumb when it comes to the matters of the heart." Boss chided.

"Well to my defense, I was really confused at that time. Plus the fact that it was my first time liking someone so I guess it just piled up and I spoke without thinking first." I retorted.

"Okay okay. Point taken. Well what did he do then?" Tee asked.

"Well he did what I asked and avoided me like there's no tomorrow." I answered a bit with a humor.

"Serves you right my friend." Bohn said with a chuckle.

"Shut up! Can you just help me out and at least give a suggestion on what I could do." I said.

"Well it's pretty obvious Ai'King. Talk to him. It's good that you're trying to sort out your feelings but you don't have to do it alone. Both of you guys are involved on that matter so do you think it's just fair if you'd include him when you're trying to sort out things? Plus it can prevent him misunderstanding things." Mek replied.

"What do you mean by him misunderstanding things Ai'Mek?" I asked.

"You're totally clueless to this friend. You told him to get lost right? He did what you asked and you didn't even bother reaching out to him to sort things out. Do you realize what he will think of your actions?" Mek answered.

"Well he might think that I'm satisfied and ok with what he's doing. He would believe that it is what I really wanted. So if he really has any sort of feelings for me, he would think that I dont feel the same for him and would totally just distance himself from me. Knowing how simple minded he is, he would surely think like that. Uhhh guys I think I totally fucked up." I said to them.

"You sure did!" All of them replied at the same time.

"I surely screwed up this time guys. I'll try to sort this out and thanks guys for your help. I don't want him to be away from me. I'm seriously stressed because of this. I dont like this feeling at at all and I wish for this to be over soon." We all stood up and continued our useless banter on the way out of the library.

(on the other side of the library)

RAM'S POV

I was taking a nap at the library since it was my free time. Lately I been feeling a bit weak for some reason. I easily run out of breath on some occassions and I get tired faster than usual. This annoying cough would also attack me every once in a while. I was awaken by that slight noise of chattering coming from one of the tables near the shelves where I was taking a nap. Seriously, the librarian here in our faculty doesn't care about the noise made inside the library. I guess she already got used to how noisy the engineering students are and got tired of reprimanding people. That's why she wouldn't call you out as long as you dont shout or make a wailing noise.

Setting aside those thoughts, I went near the source of that noise since that voice seems so familiar to me. As I got nearer the table I realized that it was HIM. My P'King. My unrequited love.

Once I got close enough to them, I hid behind the bookshelf that's just behind their table. I tried listening to what P'King was saying and that was when I wished I didn't do that.

......"I'm seriously stressed because of this. I dont like this feeling at at all and I wish for this to be over soon."

I thought my heart can never get shattered any more than it is right now but I was wrong. I went to the far corner of the library and crouched down as I silently let my tears fall. I felt suffocated and started coughing non stop. A few minutes after, I stood up after the tears and the coughing stopped. I was too disoriented to even notice that a single white flower petal fell onto my lap while I was coughing. It was now on the ground as I already stood up and left. It would really be a beautiful flower petal....
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...except for the fact that it was slightly tinted with blood. My own blood.

A/N: Chapter 4 done. Fire away with your comments and feedback. Vote if you like as always. 😁