The Seed

Retreat

KING'S POV

After the incident that happened last Saturday with Ai'Ning, I decided that it's time for me to re-evaluate my stand.

Sure, I want to win Ai'Ning back. It would be really great if he'd warm up to me again. There's nothing more that I'd wish for than for him to open up his heart to me again.

But with the situation that I witnessed last Saturday, I'm starting to have doubts once more. My resolve is already waning and I can't help myself but ask if what I'm doing was still the right thing to do.

'Am I pushing myself too much on you Ai'Ning? Are you really seeing someone else already? Is it  really impossible for you to open up your heart to me again?'

Having those doubts in my mind, I decided to take a step back first and give Ai'Ning some space. I need to re-think what I need to do. If he's really into that girl then I'd have no choice but to let him go.

I love him and that's not even a question right now. That's the same exact reason as to why I decided to give him space first.

I love him to the extent that I'm okay as long as he's happy. Though it was not me that's causing it, it's fine, as long as he's happy.

I can't help but chuckle at my own thoughts. Am I becoming a martyr because of my love for him? I don't think so. I guess that's really what love is. Being selfless for your loved ones' happiness is all part of being in love.

That's the same exact reason as to why I'm holing up here at my grandma's place. I won't be able to give Ai'Ning his freedom if I stay anywhere near him that's why I decided to come here.

My grandma's place has always been my place of retreat whenever I'm facing my tough times. Not only do I find comfort with the plants that we have here, my grandma is also a really wise person and is capable of giving me the advice that I need.

I came here last Sunday and eversince then, what I'd been doing here is laze around my grandma's garden and take care of her plants specially my favorite jasmine plants. Whenever I wasn't doing that, then I'd just be sitting somewhere within the area while going through the thoughts I have in mind.

I was glad that my grandma has been very understanding of me and didn't ask much as to why I decided to give her a surprise visit and why I've been staying here for a few days now.

I guess she also felt that I'm also not in my right mindset to speak at that time so she just allowed me to stay while I go ahead and collect my thoughts and analyze my feelings.

I was so deep in my thoughts while sitting at her garden when someone sat beside me and game me a light tap on my shoulder. I looked at my right side to see my grandma looking at me with those very understanding eyes of her.

"Dear you've been doing that for the past few days now. I know that this time you didn't come here to just visit grandma, right?"

I looked at her and thought that maybe this is really what I came here for. To get her advice as I'd know my grandma would be able to share to me her wisdom and help determine what I need to do so I decided to speak.

"Grandma I'm just really confused right now. I really don't know what to do. I mean I might know the right thing to do but I'm sure that I'll end up getting hurt in the end and that is what makes me scared."

My grandma looked at me fondly and said. "It's  a love problem right dear? I can clearly sense it. Care to share grandma what's bothering you?"

'I really came to the right place'