protector or destroyer. (shadow hunter fanfic)

what she has to do

A white blanket of snow covers the ground. Snow falling down from the clear dark sky. It wasn't snow it was ash. Ria sat up and the memories before then swam around her. she stood up she felt herself shake and a hand steadying her she turned to find a girl and a boy, her hair so light it almost camouflaged, she was wearing a white dress and a bronze locket, the boy's hair brown like a tree trunk, he wore a white suit, there standing in front of Ria was- "Alina... Jonathon." Tears pricked her eyes, she smiled, and they smiled back. they took a step forward and hugged each other.

"how-how are you here?" Jonathon asked crying.

"oh, you really are a big baby." Alina said tapping his back.

"well, I'm sorry I have been stuck up here without my baby sister as I watch her throughout the ages unable to help her."

"whose faults that."

"mine."

"no!" Jonathon and Alina shouted back at her surprised. She hadn't realised she had said it until they had knocked her onto the surprisingly soft ground.

"don't ever say that."

"it was our fault. We should have taken better care of you."

"what were you going to do lock me up?"

"well." Alina said.

"hey." Jonathon scowled at her as he hit her on the arm.

"it was just a suggestion." She growled back in pain.

"you guys can feel pain up here."

"we can feel everything."

"but that's not possible."

"it is." Alina smiled at her sister. "we can be together."

"really?"

"yes."

"a family again." Jonathon said.

"I..." Ria looked back down at the pond. They had watched everyone come and go like a speed up reality. She smiled slightly at MJ and Magnus talking. Jo sitting by her side in infirmary. She was reminded of the time of when Tessa was consumed by her angel and she was out cold for ages, how Will always sat with her, talking to her. "I can't"

"why?"

"they need me." She said looking up at her siblings. "he needs me."

"he will be just fine."

"he is with his family now."

"what?" Ria scrunched up her face in confusion.

"MJL... you know him as MJ, it's short for Max Joseph Lightwood."

"what!"

"yep."

"why? Why is he with me?"

"Max wasn't supposed to die. Jonathon wasn't every meant to be able to exist, just like Tessa. She was given her angel. You thought MJ was your guardian angel... no, you have been his."

"he needs to go home."

"how...?"

"you will get him there."

"as I say again, how?"

"we shall help you, but they have already been working on getting his memories back and have been failing. You have to give them back."

"I don't have them."

"yes, you do."

"no."

"yes, you did it with Jonathon and you will do it again with Max. you just don't want to."

"I would never withhold something like that."

"we know it hasn't been intentionally, but you have. You need to let him go."

"is this something he wants?"

"yes."

"then I must do it."

"good."

"now you need to wake up."

"how?"

They started walking back towards the water.

"down there."

"I just swim down."

"yes. Because you need to wake up."

Ria sat down her feet in the water sending ripples over it. she looked up and her sister and brother where standing behind her hand in hand. "wake up. Wake up, Astria." They said together. she slipped into the water and with one last look towards her siblings she smiled and dived down.

"wake up." With every push the light slowly disappeared from above. "Wake up." The only light was from below, beckoning her towards them. "Wake up. You can do it Astria. Just wake up." She looked through the glass like border of the other side and reality. She hesitated. "WAKE UP!" the voice pushed Ria through, and she felt herself tumbling through the bored and like a puzzle being put into place she was back in her body. It was cold at first then she felt her heartbeat louder, harder and heat rushed through her.