Savage Love || An Eminem Fanfiction

Chapter 54

Marshall's POV

'03 Bonnie & Clyde - Jay Z & Beyonce

Sitting at the soundboard zoned out, thinking about Blair.

At least now I don't feel word about thinking about Blair.

Girlfriend, fuck, that's a word I didn't think I'd be saying ever again.

I love her.

Yeah, I didn't think I'd ever tell another woman that I love her, besides my daughters ever again either.

And to think when we first met I couldn't stand her, but now I kinda can't stand to be without her.

She was such a big-mouthed, rude, obnoxious... disturbingly beautiful woman.

Now she's the first thing I think of when I wake up and the last thing I think of when I go to sleep.

How the hell did I fall in love with a rude as fuck 28-year-old, she's almost half my damn age, not that I care but she.

She's literally like the younger, female version of me or some shit.

She makes me feel younger, and the sex is mindblow-

"Marshall? Bro you still with me?"

"Hmmm...What?"

"You gonna do something or just keep staring into nothing?"

"Sorry man, I was just thinking"

Denaun eyed me "you've been in a really good mood this week, something you want to tell me?"

"Got a new rare comic, had to fight some skinny asshole for it"

"How are you so famous yet so weird?"

"Worked for Micheal Jackson" I shrugged.

I Heard the famous snort followed by Louboutin heels clacking on the floor behind me.

"Hey girl, you're looking great!" Denaun said getting up to hug Blair "That new job working wonders for you, you're actually glowing"

"Oh yeah, the new job has me finding god" She smirked, looking to me.

"I'm happy for ya, you deserve good things, anyway, I'll catch up with you sometime soon, I gotta go meet up with Tiana" He said before dapping me, hugging Blair again then leaving.

"Finding god huh?"

She laughed and sat next to me in Denauns vacated seat "You're not the only one that knows how a double entendre works"

I stood up and nodded towards my office, she got up and followed me, greeting people in the hallways as we walked in, closing and locking the door behind us.

I sat down on my chair and she followed, sitting in the corner of my desk.

"I like this, there are no blurred lines anymore"

She grinned at me "I feel... Right, I was struggling with all the pent up emotions, and I have to admit, the sneaking around is pretty exciting"

"You have no idea" I smirked "How was work?"

"I loved it, it's only been a few weeks, but I feel like I belong"

"That's great, I'm happy for you" I said and then sighed as continued "While I was looking for you last week, I found out Kelsey was in rehab after an overdose, I wasn't sure if I should bring it up or not... are you ok?"

Blair nodded "She's doing ok, we've been face-timing, I was gonna go see her again, that's actually the reason why I turned up at yours that night, because I had just come from seeing her, see earlier that morning Colson called and told me about it..." She said eyebrows knitting together in confusion "By the way, he texted me to tell you Thanks Motherfucker?... know what that's about?"

"I sent that toothpick cupid a gift... he's still a cocksucker, but his heart was in the right place when it concerned you" I said "And he helped me patch things up, so I sent him a Virtual Reality Headset with a PornHub Premium subscription, so he can jack off to Racheal Starr till his cock drops off"

"That's sweet and generous of you... I don't understand men at all, you two are weird"

"So what's up about Kelsey? Did you wanna talk to m about it?"

Blair stiffened and moved uncomfortably on the desk.

"Well, she told me she was pregnant" Blair's said quietly, shoulders dropping as she said it, like the words were sharp and painful.

I grabbed her arm and pulled her so she was sitting in my lap.

"Is it wrong for me to feel angry? like is it irrational to feel like this, I mean pregnancy and birth is meant to be a happy time, I just can't be happy for anyone, all I can feel is anger, resentment and jealousy"

"Not at all baby" I said running my hand over her thigh, "I think you're entitled to feel that way, is that why you came to me?"

"Yeah"

"I'm so sorry, I'm sorry you had to deal with it all alone, I'm sorry your safe place was no longer safe"

"To be fair Marshall, it's not your fault, it's mine for not being clear, and to be honest I didn't realise at the time how I would feel when I said it because I guess I was confused, but when I walked in and saw those nasty ass shoes, I felt sick"

"Well, I'm all yours now, so talk to me"

She sighed "She keeping it, I'm angry but didn't say anything, I know her, she always disliked kids, it feels like a slap in the face"

"Well, maybe you should tell her that?"

"I don't think she would understand, most people that know are struggling to understand because I can still go on to adopt... But it's not the same" She said twisting my jumper cord around her finger "Can I ask why you stopped at Hailie, I mean the Whit and Alaina are amazing, but did you not want another of your own?"

"I guess with all the fame it never happened, Kim had a miscarriage in the early 2000s, things were bad between us then anyways, the drinking and the drugs, Then I adopted the others, got addicted and kinda never thought about it again, it didn't help that I never had another long term relationship that led down that road"

Blair's eyes watered, blinking tears back as she bit her lip "Do think the ache will ever stop?"

"I don't think it will stop... I just think you'll get better with dealing with the pain..." I said pulling her into a hug "Hey so... It's just an idea, I'm not sure if you know it but Denuan can't have kids, he found out when he was 30... Do you maybe wanna talk to him?, I mean he's a guy, but I'm sure he'd feel the same?"

"Really?"

"Yeah, he has an accident when he was 15, made him infertile "

"I had no idea, But Tiana?"

"Shes unofficially his adopted daughter, look I don't want to force you into it so it's there, when you're ready, ill get him to come round"

"I'd appreciate that"

She forced a smile.

Blair had one of those smiles that reached her eyes always, a when she was trying to put on a tough front it was usually the dead give away from me.

That and I've stared into those green eyes long enough over our time to be able to read them.

I had so much shit to catch up on, I was behind in some beats and paperwork.

"Hey so, I'm done for the day, wanna blow this place and go home and watch some stupid chick flick? We can order what you want?"

"27 Dresses?" She grinned at me, eyes lighting up.

I've got all the time in the world to catch up on beats.