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|| PITTER PATTER THE RAINDROPS GO AS I SIT BY THE WINDOW REFLECTING ON THE WORDS YOU SAID TO ME ||

i spent the last hour replaying what had just went on. rather than going home from rebecca's house like i usuaully did, i went to the park. my stomach kept twisting and turning and all I wanted to do was vomit.

my family and i went to rebecca's house for lunch; they invited us over. i took my own car because my mum made me go earlier to seem more interested. they didn't tell me what was going to happen; all i was told was we were going out for a lunch to their house and to dress nicely. 

lunch was loud. everyone was talking, i wasn't paying attention. i was just cutting up my food and playing around with it, occasionally taking a bite or two out of whatever was on the plate. everything around me was just a blur, and i could care less what anyone had to say. all i wanted to do was get out of here and go back home, sit with michael and talk to him about anything. 

over the past few days, michael and i became especially close. we learned more things about each other; well I learnt more about him. he apparently knew everything about me, it was a gift aphrodite gave him. he knew all things that bothered me, and all things that made me feel over the moon. i wondered if he knew i only needed his presence to feel like i was on top of the world. i smiled at the thought of michael.

my thoughts, though, were rudely interupted by my mother. "isn't that right, luke, dear?" she says. i, of course, have no idea what she is talking about, though i nod because if i don't she'll basically kill me in my sleep. she smiled, and clapped her hands. "since luke has had thoughts of marrying your little rebecca, i don't see why we don't just do it in the next month." she states. i widened my eyes not expecting that to be what i was nodding to.

"marriage?" i squeaked out, low enough for only her to hear.

"ah, young love," she said, ignoring my question. she turned to me and gave me a deadly look before turning back to Rebecca's parents and smiling sweetly at them. i wanted nothing more than to just jump out of the closest window the minute she said marriage. 

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michael and i sat in my room, both of our backs layed against my mattress. he interlaced her fingers with mine, and spoke the whole night. I stayed quiet, replaying what just happened. i tried to imagine what was going to happen, but all I could see was a miserable me. i didn't even understand how any of this was even meant to work. are michael and i not meant to get married because i thought that was the reason aphrodite brought him to life. 

"okay, something is wrong," michael said bringing me out of my thoughts. worry was written all over his face and i couldn't help but feel like shite for making the one person i love more than ever scared. 

"i'm getting married, michael," i whisper. i don't want it to come true, but that was my life. he looked confused. 

"yeah, to me, in like two years," he states like it's the simplest thing on earth, but it wasn't and it'll never be. i could feel my vision start to become slightly glassy, i shut my eyes closed so no tears escape. i couldn't cry, not here, not now. 

"no michael, i'm getting married to rebecca is a month," i say. my voice cracked, and my body was slightly shaking, causing the entire bed to move. i kept my eyes shut not wanting to see the look on his face because i knew it couldn't be a positive one.

instead of yelling and screaming like i thought he could, the red haired boy moved me so i was sitting on his lap. i burried my head in the crook of his neck and sobbed. my body was shaking, hard, but i didn't care anymore. my life kept getting worse and worse by second with the little girl around and i wanted nothing more than to just sleep forever.

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i started school today so my updating will be shit. i have to study like 3-6 hours a night so i write in my car rides. ily guys a lot though. four more chapters omg

predictions on what's going to happen?