The Mafia Reaper

Chapter 21

After one thousand ninety five days...

"You're running too fast! Baby, baka madulas ka!" Rinig kong sigaw ni Sandro mula sa ikalawang palapag ng bahay. Natataranta na siya, but his voice is still serious, and it's making me laugh.

Kasalukuyan akong nagluluto ng umagahan ngayon, at nang makapasok ako sa may dining area ay naroon na si Sandro kasama ang anak kong babae.

Pagod niya akong nginitian, "This child of yours is relentless, Hana." Saka niya ginulo-gulo ang buhok ng bata. I heard her say bleh, "Mama niaaway ako ni wuya kanina." Sumbong pa niya saakin. She's talking about her twin.

Malakas na tumawa si Sandro, "Baby, it's kuya not wuya." Pagtatama niya bago siya kumuha ng tubig sa ref.

Napatitig ako sa mga mata na minana niya sakanyang ama, "Where's kuya?" malambing kong tanong saka siya kinandong, "Ayaw po niya baba." Sagot naman nito.

I heard Sandro tsked, "Isa pa yun. That kid is like his father. Ikaw lang ang sinusunod!" their father... I miss him so much.

Andaming nangyari sa loob ng tatlong taon.

Hindi biro ang makulong. Hindi madali ang buhay doon. I heard the stories and experiences of the inmates, at talagang pinagsisisihan nila ang mga nagawa nilang mali.

Sa loob ng bilangguan, I encountered God. Bible teachers went there to share to us God's goodness. Hating gabi, nagising nalang ako at biglang umiyak... hindi ko ito mapigil-pigilan. My heart hurts so bad because I've been keeping the guilt inside it ever since I handled a gun, to the point that I couldn't contain it. Humagulgol ako, buti nalang at tulog mantika ang mga presong kasama ko.

I remembered the bad decisions I made in life... I remembered the days when I felt like I did a wrong thing, yet I didn't stop... may choice ako eh, pero hindi ko piniling gawin ang tama. My past flashbacked.

And that night, I realized that Our decisions can separate us from God. He gave us the free will to choose, and when I decided to join the mafia... when I decided to kill innocent people, those decisions separated me from God... and never will I make that again.

Hindi ko maintindihan ang sarili ko noong gabing iyon. I felt broken and unsatisfied.

I talked to God; Although I can't see Him, I know that He hears me. Although I've been unfaithful to Him... even though nilabag ko ang utos Niyang huwag pumatay, I realized that once I go back to Him, He'll fully accept me because He loves me more than what I think of. Tatanggapin Niya pa rin ako nang buong-buo kahit gaano pa ako karumi, just like the story of the Prodigal child in the Bible. He restored my soul.

I'm fully known, and loved by God... and He won't let me go no matter what I do, no matter what mistake I make. He alone can satisfy my soul, and I'm sure of that.

For He satisfies the thirsty and fills the hungry with good things –Psalm 107:9

I asked for forgiveness. I repented, and I made a covenant... never again will I kill a person or an animal. The Lord gives life, and he doesn't want anyone to murder their own kind.

You shall not murder –Exodus 20:13

When I found out that I was pregnant, tinanggap ko kaagad ang alok ni Commander. Nilabas nila ako sa bilangguan para pag-aralin sa police academy. I just graduated a week ago, at kahit na buntis ako noong first year ko ay hindi ako tumigil dahil hindi naging maselan ang pagdadalang-tao ko. Nag-absent lang ako nang kabuwanan ko na. The academy was considerate because of L5 task force.