Think Happy

The road to hell is paved with good intentions

We silently helped each other get dressed. He was very quiet. More than usual. Could it be that he got upset by what I just told him? I could tell by his inward slanting eyebrows that he was annoyed.
-What training?
-My military training! As future queen of Qingqiu I will be the head of the army. I can't just hold an empty title and parade amongst the soldiers as a decoration. Plus all the previous monarchs have been fierce warriors. I wish to be one of them.
-But you are my wife now! I will never allow it!
-EXCUSE ME!? Being MY HUSBAND does not mean I am YOUR PROPERTY to do as you please! I was starting to lose my temper.

Dijun was torn. He doesn't want to fight her but losing this argument is out of question. There was no way he will let her go to war. It was written all over his face. Wait a minute there wasn't even a war. What was he on about? He needs to back down and think before he carries on this conversation.
-Xiaobai! He said with a smile. Let's not get over board here. Let's take a minute to think and continue this conversation later. Hmm? What do you say?

She huffed raising her shoulders up and down then turned around and headed for the door.
Dijun watched her closed the door behind her. What was he suppose to do now? He headed back behind his desk and hanged his face in his palm releasing a deep breath that he held in his chest since she left. How could everything turn sour in a matter of seconds?

There was a knock in the door.
Is she back? Did she realised the nonsense she was on about and came back to apologise? He tidied his attire and said:
-Come in!
-Dong Hua! Finally I get to see you since you returned from you honeymoon!
-Third Prince...it's you...
-Of course is me. Were you expecting someone else? He took a closer look at his face. Of course you were expecting someone else you are married now. But...by the look on your face she is not coming. Oh God! What did you do this time?
-Lian Song!
-Dijun let me help you. Tell me what happened and maybe I can offer a piece of advice.
Dijun looked at him.
-You? With your worldwide reputation of playboy who is still single?
-Dijun! I may not know much but I know women.
Dijun smirked at him.
-Dijun I didn't come here for you to mock me!
-No? Why DID you come here for?
-Well I came to play a game of GO, but now seeing your attitude I better return another day.
-Hmmm. Actually let's play. It help me think clearer.
Lian Song made the board appear and place the first piece.
-Your turn.

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I went back to my room fuming! I shut the door with a bang that resonated through the palace. Everyone including Dijun heard it.

Zhong Li went into panic mode. Something happened between her highness and Dijun. Cha Cha immediately turned to head to her mistress bedroom. He stopped her.
-Now is not a good time! I think they had a fight. Is better we wait to be called. She nodded and returned to the household account books throwing one more look towards the mistress's room.

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I sat on the bed with tears filling up my eyes. I refused to blink because then I will really be crying and he doesn't deserve my tears.
-How dare he? I can do whatever I want. I always have! Why would he now forbid me to train. My whole family has supported my training over the years. And he is against it? Doesn't he already know I have to be anointed as a monarch in less than a year? My training is still undergoing. I have so much left to learn. I don't want to be seen only as the wife of Dong Hua Dijun. I want to be seen as the Queen of Qingqiu first. Anyway he is just my Prince Consort. In the future he will definitely not have a say in the rulings I'll pass as a monarch.

More I was thinking about it more I wanted to cry. To the point that I was chocking in my tears. I started coughing in fits and soon after I had to run to the bathroom where I vomited heavily. How come I vomit I didn't even ate today? When I felt there was no more coming out, I got up and washed my face. I went to the bed, lied down and tried to slowly calm down.