Think Happy

Whoever say it first looses

Dijun had stopped and just followed her with his eyes as she entered the bedroom. What have I done? All I wanted is to protect you. Can't you see that my little fox? I like you so much! I've been dotting on you since the day you have became mine and I will continue to do so to the day I'll pass into nothingness. I thought you can understand my love. Oh the love I bear for you how can I explain it?

How would I understand what love is if you didn't stand in front of me to receive it, you who showed me what a completely pure heart means and demanded me to answer with the same purity. How can I achieve Nirvana if in my deepest love I don't take responsibility for you? I am so tired of being selfish, unhappy and alone. How can I possibly live any longer if you are not in my life. I will become just a puppet of faith with no aim and no purpose.

I have everything one could ever possible want, but it becomes pointless when there is no more excitement that you have them. How can I continue living now that I know your warmth? You are the only one that suppressed my selfishness and showed me how to put someone else above myself. The day I met you I have accepted that there isn't just me anymore. Now there is us! Only through mutual love, connection is complete. And if we don't communicate with each other and learn how to compromise we will never be happy together. But I am letting my selfishness take over again thinking about my own happiness when I should be thinking firstly at yours. I know I love you but do you?

Dijun rest his chin on his chest. Turned around and headed to the lotus pond to meditate. He thought is better to give her some space to calm down and then he'll try again later to speak to her.

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Dijun was aware that Cha Cha has been in and out of the bedroom with trays of food. But she hasn't come out yet. She must be really mad at him! At the hour of bedtime he could wait any longer and decided to knock on her door.
-Xiaobai! Can we please talk?
No answer.
-Please let me in! I promise if you just give me 5 minutes after that I'll leave you alone.
She kept him at the door for another 10 minutes. Dijun nearly gave up. When he was just about to leave the door opened just a bit.
-Come... just 5 minutes!
-Dijun quickly entered the room and closed the door behind him.

Zhong Li was at the end of the corridor with Cha Cha just behind him listening to his master just in case he needed him. He was completely baffled as he never heard his master beg anyone. But then again when you are in love you are bound to do unusual things. At least this is what he heard. Whilst lost in his thoughts he didn't realised Cha Cha was sitting very close to him with her eyes closed and her hands tugged under her chin. Then she brought both of them back to reality when she whispered:

-Master loves Mistress so much! Love is so wonderful! I bet is the most wonderful thing in the world to be in love! She said with a meaningful look while clapping her thick brown eyelashes at Zhong Li.
His heart fluttered in a matter of seconds. He coughed a couple of times and excused himself.
-I have matters time attend in the library. I'll see you tomorrow. Have a good rest. And he sprinted towards the library.
Cha Cha remained in her spot and clapped her hands a few times. She was so happy Dijun and her Mistress we're finally talking.

On the other hand Zhong Li was in a complete state of confusion. What just happened? Was Cha Cha trying to confess to him? He never looked at her in that way. Moreover he had trained her for the last couple of years. She could be like his little sister. But he couldn't deny that she was really pretty and she always smelled like daffodils. Her smile was very pure and there was not even one single seed of bitterness in her character. Zhong Li! Stop this! You can't be having this thoughts. Marriage is out of question! You need to serve Dijun for the rest of your life. You are only one person. You can't be in two places at once. And you place is with Dijun. Is impossible so forget it!