kalopsia [harry styles]

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TRIGGER WARNING: suicide, death.

March 11, 2018

Sometimes, if Fallon thought about it, she could understand the meaning of life and death. Of course, it didn't happen often, but she liked to think about what happed after someone died.

When she was seven, her grandmother got diagnosed with Cancer.

Death was a strange thing to her, and even though everyone told her that it was going to be fine, she knew that for some reason, Grandma wouldn't be here anymore.

She's passed on. They'd said, and Fallon didn't exactly know what it meant.

She would see people crying around her, mourning the loss of their loved one, but to Fallon, Grandma was just in her house, a few miles away, waiting for them to show up.

It took her a while to know what death really meant.

And when she did, it amazed her.

How could someone be there, and then the next moment just... disappear?

It was a complex topic that Fallon thought about a lot.

She never really discussed it out loud though. Her friends didn't really care, and Faith was too involved on living her best life to really slow down and contemplate what happened when you died.

That was what contrasted Faith and Fallon.

Faith was a free spirit. She did what she wanted when she wanted. Every boy wanted to be with her, and every girl wanted to be her.

Including Fallon.

It hadn't been easy growing up in her big sister's shadow. Faith was only older by three minutes, but it was clear who was the one that always took the lead.

Faith had everything. The looks, the friends, the boys, the clothes, the personality, the social skills. Everything.

And Fallon had, well she had herself.

She'd grown used to being behind Faith, always lurking in the back, never getting the attention she craved.

Sometimes she would look at her sister, and want so badly to be her that it physically hurt.

She'd cried a lot over the years, feeling guilty about being jealous when she herself had a lot of things.

But she'd never be Faith.

She didn't want to resent her sister. Faith had always been nice to her, and she'd been Fallon's best friend. The pair had been through thick and thin, and they had an unbreakable bond.

That's why Fallon should have seen the signs.

Even from the day before, the signs had been there. The apologizing, the buying of gifts. She'd stopped going out a while back, and she'd stopped talking to her friends.

Fallon had also noticed she'd stopped eating, and the past week, Faith had been giving Fallon little gifts. 'Memoirs' she'd said, so that Fallon would never forget about their times together.

She'd been so blind not to notice.

The morning that everything had happened, she'd slept in again.

She was incredibly late for their plans together, but it was normal for Fallon to arrive a half an hour later after the time had been set.

Except this time she'd woken up with a text from Faith, and if Fallon scanned it carefully, it sounded like a goodbye.