Philidosia

Death doesn't discriminate

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Theo's POV

I remember losing my mother. I didn't see it I just came home from school to see my father crying but I didn't see it.

I saw my father die.

The doctor told us he had a heart attack and his heart was also weak. So it was bound to stop soon anyway.

I watched as they lowered his coffin into the ground with tears rolling down my eyes. Sally was sobbing along with many other people. Thomas Jefferson and James Madison were also there standing next to Alexander. Madison was trying hard to hold back tears from flooding his face.

Philip was standing next to me holding my hand until I couldn't bear it anymore. I started sobbing uncontrollably and he pulled my head into his chest rubbing my back. I heard him crying a little bit too. I saw Angelica sobbing real hard and hugging Eliza who couldn't look at the coffin any longer.

Why was it always me? Both of my parents

My father was buried next to my mom. I bet he was happy now. In a better place with my mom laughing and all happy. Sometimes I wish I could be with them up there but I'm just not ready to leave the world yet. I'm not ready to leave Philip. I haven't left my mark on this earth yet.

Philip's POV

Theodosia got her seat in the senate. She was very happy but gone a lot more now. Whenever she would leave I would curl up in a ball sometimes and sob. I just thought about all the bad things that happened in my life instead of the good things. Theodosia would hardly talk to me much at all. She was distant. My mother finally established an orphanage and worked there now she was happy. I didn't visit it much though I started to become distant.

"Theodosia why won't you talk to me?"

"I'm just not in the mood to really talk right now I just want peace and quiet"

I sigh and scoot next to her.

"You have been really distant lately can you please tell me what's going on?"

She looks at me with upset baggy eyes and stands up

"Maybe you would know if both your parents were dead maybe then you would understand"

I was getting frustrated. I get it but is was always an excuse she wouldn't just talk to me.

"Oh yeah maybe if I just kill both of my parents I would understand" I say sarcastically while standing up

She frowns at me and just leaves the room. I curl up into a ball and just sit there for hours. I hear loud sobbing in the bathroom and walked in and saw Theodosia standing there with a tiny knife held against her wrist.

Ok sorry but I am honestly sobbing while writing this and idk why😭!

She looks at me and sets the knife down.

"Show me your wrist"

She shows it to me and I notice one small deep cut that was bleeding slowly.

"Damn it Theo" I walk out getting my medical kit and sit her on the counter. She is still slightly sobbing and I put some achohol onto a wipe.

"This might burn a little bit"

She nods

I dab it and she bites her lip with tears coming down faster.

"I'm so sorry Theo"

"No it's my fault"

I look up at her and wrap a bandage around the cut. I grab her by her arm and we start walking to our bedroom.