Hyungwon was dumbfounded by what had just happened in front of him. Hoseok just left him to chase someone he called 'Changkyun'. He got a very mixed feeling but he couldn't seem to move from his place. Hyungwon stared blankly at the big television in front of him, he could see his reflection clearly. His messy clothes, hairs and also his swollen lips. Hyungwon really didn't know what he should do next, should he leave Hoseok's apartment or wait for the owner to get back and then leave?
"Maybe he won't be back..." Hyungwon sighed and buried his face on his knees. He felt stupid and useless, he couldn't stop to think that Hoseok only used him but he didn't want to jump to that conclusion yet. Maybe.. Just maybe... Hoseok was confused? Honestly, Hyungwon didn't know but deep down inside, Hyungwon kinda wished that what happened between them means something to Hoseok.
When Hyungwon was still busy drowning inside his mind, Hoseok came back looking really bad. Hoseok walked lifelessly to the living room and saw Hyungwon was still there sitting on his sofa. Guilt filled Hoseok's heart, he shouldn't have done it. He felt like a bad guy who's driven only by lust and made Hyungwon got a wrong idea.
"Hyungwon.." Hoseok called Hyungwon and the model looked up to him, his heart crushed when he saw how Hoseok looked right now. It's not because of how messy his appearance but how miserable he looks. Heartbroken really did it.
"You okay?" was the only thing that Hyungwon could say. He bit his lips, regretting his action. He should have stayed silent and didn't do anything before Hoseok said a thing or two. To his surprise, Hoseok walked closer to him and then hugged him. Hyungwon became stiff, he tried to push Hoseok away but the older man stopped him. Hoseok tightened his hug and buried his face on Hyungwon's shoulder.
"I don't want to be alone."
"Then what do you want me to do, Hoseok?"
"Will you stay with me, tonight?" Hoseok let go of Hyungwon and looked at him in the eyes. Hyungwon hated himself because he was so weak right now. Hyungwon wanted to leave, he knew that Hoseok only used him but he didn't have the heart to leave Hoseok when he saw tears building on his precious eyes.
"Then i'm yours tonight." Hoseok took it as a cue to kiss Hyungwon's lips. This time it was more intense than before, it's not only lust but also anger and frustration. Hyungwon could feel Hoseok's tears as they kissed each other. His mind told him to stop, his mind warned him but his body didn't cooperate. He really wants to ease the older's pain even though he has to sacrifice his own feeling, he was more than willing to do that for Hoseok.
"Hoseok.." Hyungwon moaned his name when Hoseok touched him.
"Changkyun...." Hoseok called the other guy's name. Hyungwon's heart sank deeper when he heard it but he couldn't stop. What did you do to yourself, Hyungwon?
"Please call me again with that pretty lips." Hoseok asked Hyungwon to call him again and even though Hyungwon knew that Hoseok thought about the other guy but he didn't stop Hoseok. Maybe he's a fool that already gave too much to Hoseok.
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night shift / showki
FanfictionKihyun never knew that his meeting with his ex after 10 years would be at the countryside hospital but his ex, Hyunwoo was dying in front of him and he's the only one who can save him.