Fleeting Moments With You

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The night Dahyun professed her love for me, we decided to cuddle each other to sleep. We were clothed but our limbs were entangled with each other. We held each other close, not letting a gap form between us. It was a delightful feeling for me to sleep with her body warming mine and her scent filling my nose. She was my euphoria.

I would never properly describe how perfect the morning was when I woke up to her sleeping figure beside me, solemn, peaceful and beautiful. With a smile, I kissed her forehead, and carefully untucked myself from the blankets and untangled her arms from my waist. I actually wanted to stay in that moment forever with her, however, I wanted to thank her for making me happy by surprising her with her favorite menu for breakfast.

The smile on my lips couldn't be erased as I prepared our breakfast. It was as if I owned the world. I was more fortunate than a person who won the lottery for it was the love of Dahyun I had won over. I was certain that we were in love with each other and I couldn't thank everyone and everything enough for that. I felt like I was floating in heaven from being too happy and I couldn't help at chuckle myself at my own foolishness.

I was about wake her up for I was done making breakfast but even before I could enter her room, she had opened the door.

"Good morning," I smiled sweetly at her.

I wanted to envelop her into a hug and shower her with kisses, but her question stopped me from doing so.

"Who are you?"

Three words.

It only took three words to take me away from the blissful trance I was in. Time stood still for me at that moment and the silence was deafening.

"Me?" I asked her back. I didn't know how but I was able to voice out my most dreaded question, "Have you forgotten who I am?"

She creased her eyebrows as she shot back, "Am I supposed to know you?"

"You're kidding, right?" I chortled.

From confusion, I could see how Dahyun's eyes suddenly reflected concern and that was when realization struck me. Tears were already cascading down my face, unstoppable. I waited for her to hug me, kiss my tears away and tell me that she was lying but there was fear and hesitation in her eyes.

Looking at those orbs, I knew that I was yet again, a stranger for the woman who told me she loved me.

The glory I was in was too high. The ache from being brought down from that height was deadly. It was Dahyun who gave me that unimaginable amount of joy but it was also her who took it away. I wanted to shout how unfair everything was, but my voice was stuck in my throat, and now, it was because of overwhelming anguish. To say that I was heartbroken was an understatement for the pain made it seem like it was my whole body which was being crushed into dust. It was as if air was being taken away from my lungs. She was killing me.

And just like that shooting star I wished upon, my happiness was short-lived.

Everything I had with her was mere fleeting moments.

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The world was already spinning in front of my eyes, but the alcohol was still not successful at making the pain in my heart subside. Suddenly, I heard someone call my name. With groggy eyes, I turned to that person's direction who was furious at my current state and immediately asked what I was doing.

"Drowning away all the agony," I muttered.

"What happened?" Seulgi took a seat beside me and stopped me from pouring more alcohol into my glass.

Too drunk to protest, I buried my head in my arms crossed over the counter. A short chuckle escaped my lips as I answered, "She finally loves me back."

"But she forgets me yet again," I added mournfully.

I muttered a curse beneath my breath as I blamed myself, "Before, when girls want to meet me again after a hook up, I pretend that I don't know them. This must be karma. Now I'm the one being forgotten."

"This scenario should be in the movies, right?" I slurred, "Thank God I'm handsome enough to qualify as a leading man in the big screen."

I chuckled on my own and laughed out loud, as if the world was not looking. However, soon, my laughter had become ugly sobs.

Seulgi went nearer towards me and patted my back in an attempt to comfort me.

She whispered, "It's okay – "

"No, it's not okay," I abruptly stopped her. I punched my chest numerous times as I told her, "It's not okay. The pain is no longer bearable, and this is light years away from being okay."

This time, Seulgi said nothing but continued on stroking my back.

"It hurts so much," I cried, "I don't know what to do anymore."

"I know," Seulgi suddenly retorted.

I raised my face which she took in her hands as she remarked, "Look for the love that you deserve."

Her fingers ghosted on my cheeks, drying away my tears as I just stared at her in silence. Her gaze on me did not linger away as she leaned in and captured my lips. I could not help but think that the way she kissed me was not the same as Dahyun's. Seulgi was in a haste – Dahyun was more careful and gentle.

I creased my eyebrows in an attempt to erase the thought of Dahyun away, like how I disappeared in her mind.

My hands then cupped Seulgi's face and I kissed her back.