To Be Different

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I stood there thinking about the name Jayden had called me earlier. I don't know why I was flattered about it but it just caught my off guard. I saw two figures from the corner of eyes giggling. I jerked my head to the side and moved up to stand properly,as I was leaning against the wall before. Jacie and Alex were approaching me with huge smiles on their faces, only God knows what they are talking about. But I didn't forget to see the slight blush I saw creeping it's way to Jacie's cheeks,making it a bright shade of pink.

I tried to put on my best 'angry big sister look'. They saw me, stopped walking,looked at me, looked at each other and then back at me. I think they were debating whether to run back from where they were coming from because of the huge scowl on my face right now. But I instead interrupted both of their stupid plans to that by walking over to them, my eyes flickered from Alex, then to jacie and finally landed on Alex.

"Where have you been alex! Do you have any idea of how many minutes I've been waiting for you?! I already gave you the impression that I wanted to go home early but instead you just kept me waiting after all the things that happened to day already! " I huffed, pretending to be angry. I just decided to start acting because I know they would both want to say something about what happened earlier and I don't want their stupid pity party! I just don't want anyone bringing it up and I hope they get the picture.

He took a deep breath and sighed "I'm sorry, Jacie had left her phone back in class and I offered to join her. I'm sorry if you are upset, I know you've had a bad day"
You should have seen the look on his face. He looked as if he wanted to cry while jacie just stared at her feet,swaying from left to right on her heels.

Alex knew what I could do if I was angry. I try my best to take it easy when I'm upset. After my little accident in Nigeria where I lost part of my memory, I don't feel as if I'm myself anymore. Like I'm someone else but I'm still in my own body. I get angry easily, mum even enrolled me in an anger management classes. She and Alex had told me that I wouldn't get angry for unnecessary things before my accident. I really want to believe it wasn't what caused my anger issues. I think I'm just infuriated about everything I can't remember. It's really annoying because when they talk about things that happened in the past, I'm always confused. But I'm grateful that at least I can remember my family and my best friend,lily. If not, my case would be a lost one to be honest.

Sometimes I try to ask myself when those things happened. And it really gets on my nerves when I can't remember.. It's just so...so ughh!

When Ashley embarrassed me in front of the whole cafeteria, I didn't want to get angry. I didn't curse on her, I didn't spank her or yank her stupid hair but later I still transferred my aggression on Jayden. Which wasn't fair since he just wanted to help me.

At the thought of Jayden, my heart skipped a beat. The way is dark hair was so curly and the way he was looking at me with those chocalaty brown eyes that sparkled as if they had flecks of gold in them just made him look so perfect and beautiful. Yes.Beautiful.

Before Alex continued to give excuses on to why he was late and blah blah whatever, I had to stop him. I laughed slightly "I was joking you silly boy, you should have seen the look on your face. I don't care where you've been, let's just get out of here"

Alex frowned "It wasn't funny, you had that murdering look on your face. I was scared for a moment you might kill me" Okay, no he's now exaggerating. I dont want to even think about what would happen to me if he dies. I'd probably be miserable for my entire life.

I sensed my demeanour changing into a frown. I rolled my eyes at him and said "Stop saying that Alex. I would never kill you. And if you die, I follow"

"You have got to stop saying that,because we are both twins doesn't mean if I die you die" he took in a sharp breath "and I reject it, none of us would die. Now can we talk about another thing apart from death. Please." Jacie tried to fight her smile, obviously amused with the way my twin and I communicate. We really are weird people.