Hurts Like Hell

13. Lose Somebody

Song: Lose Somebody by Kygo & OneRepublic

Chanyeol's POV

To say that I'm here because of Jongdae's baby isn't a lie. I truly want to see his daughter's face and celebrate his new step in life as a father. But to say that it is the 'only reason' that made me drove all the way here from my workplace as soon as I finished my job isn't quite true. There's another reason why I'm here and I'm sure you already know what it is.

-"Baekhyun" my heart skip a beat every time say his name. I wonder what is he doing now? I miss him so much it hurts to breath sometimes. Maybe.. just maybe I can park my car somewhere near the restaurant he works and watch him from far away just like what I did those years ago when I first saw him. Or maybe I'll just drive past Kai's house a few times tomorrow before I go back to see how he lives. I only want to see him, just once that will be nice but deep down I know I can't. Heck, I don't even know if I'll ever have a chance to meet him again and that thought slowly killing me.

I put my phone back into my pocket and push the bathroom door open. For the first time in six months I feel butterflies in my stomach. 'No, this can't be real.' ' maybe I think about him too much now I start to see him in someone else too.' I thought but when I hear the voice of an angel I've been craving for months, I know I'm not dreaming.

-"Ugh, I'm really hungr- oh shit!" He shouted. I quickly go inside and close the door. Baekhyun had his eyes closed, both hands on his chest perhaps trying to calm down.

-"At least make a sound w-- you" our eyes met. My heart beat so fast I can't even breath normally but I hide it all under my blank face. Looking at his face again I feel I want sit down and cry for the rest of the night. He's so beautiful. And he's min- used to be mine.

-"Park Chanyeol" he said. I bite my tongue, trying my best not to kidnap him and run away from the shitty things happen right now.

-"what are you doing here?" I look at him from head to toe. Why is he in the hospital? Is he sick? Did he get hurt? Baekhyun really hate hospital it must be something serious that makes him here. I reach my hand to touch his kissable cheek but he pushes it away that's when the reality hit me...

-"none of your business" he said coldly and took a few steps back as I walked toward him.

-"why are you here?" I grabbed his forearm. Baekhyun tried to free himself from my grip but I took the chance and pushed him against the wall.

-"don't touch me!"

-"then answer my question!"

-"I'm here with my boyfriend!!" Thud. I can see my heart on the floor. I open my mouth to say something but nothing comes out. Finally, I let go of his arms and stare at his red face. He's really angry I know.

-"I don't believe you." That's all I can say. I didn't notice how helpless I sound because fxck, that's the only thing I can feel right now. Helpless. After all the things I went through in the past few months, I thought there's nothing could hurt my already dead heart anymore. Turn out I was wrong and I'm not sure if crying can help anything now. Maybe not, this is beyond fixable.

-"then don't, it's not like you're my friend or someone important to me anyway." He purposely bump my shoulder as he walk past me. I feel numb. I know this day will come. The day he becomes someone else's boyfriend. It's hurt so bad, I cling my chest feeling all the pain inside.

-"Baekhyun!" I face his back as he open the door. This is reminds me of that Christmas day when I turned my back to him and asked for a break up. Now I watch his back just like what he did that night, karma is real.

-"Do you really love him?"

-"yes" he answered without any hesitation.

-"more than you loved me?"