Hurts Like Hell

16. I Don't Wanna See You With Him

Song: I Don't Wanna See You With Her by Maria Mena

Chanyeol's POV

My mother used to tell me that people only fall in love once, 'first love' she said. I didn't believe her back then because my first love was when I was 12. She's cute and I really liked her. We dated a few months then broke up. Two weeks later I dated a new girl and then we broke up again and I dated someone new again. I used to laugh at my mother, "we don't only fall in love once mom. Love happens all the time." I replied. But every time I said that she just smiled, "Because they are not your first love son. In the future you will find that one person, you fall for them and at that moment you realize you'll never fall for someone else like that again. It's your 'first love' a true love that only happens once, after that you just keep searching for that same feeling in different people."

Years later, I finally understood. That one person, I met him, Byun Baekhyun. Suddenly everything made sense. I realized my mother was right, my first love was him and those people I dated back then were just my misunderstanding, that's not love at all. The moment I saw him I felt something inside me changed. I couldn't get him out off my head. On that day when I decided to approach him, I cried, he walked to me like an angel, I wondered where did he hide his wings. With that beautiful smile, I already pictured us together on our wedding day. 'Ah, so this is what falling in love feels like.' I thought.

Now, seeing him walk hand in hand with other man, I feel like my heart's going to stop. It makes me want to ask 'Am I your first love Baekhyun? That one person you supposed to just once fall in love with. Or am I just like those people I dated in the past, your misunderstanding?' Because you are my first love and I'm not going to fall for other people the same way I fall for you. Never.

-"Hey, those are Doctor Zhang and Baekhyun right?" Back to the reality, a group of ladies sitting not to far from my table pointing at two people walking together, one of them is my Baekhyun.

-"They look good together.."

-"My sister said she saw them last night too. They had a dinner date. I'm sure Doctor Zhang is his boyfriend."

-"eh, really? I thought Baekhyun's not over his past relationship yet."

-"Past relationship?"

-"You don't know? Since he came here, at least 10 people confessed their feeling for him but he rejected them all saying he's not over his past relationship yet. Some said his ex boyfriend cheated on him."

-"Cheated on him? Wow is that person crazy or what?"

-"I know right, dating Baekhyun is like once in a lifetime chance. But I'm happy he's with Doctor Zhang now. He is a real gentleman."

-"Can't wait for their wedding."

I sit still listen to their conversation. Honestly I don't know how to feel right now. It's all numb. I don't feel angry or sad or anything. Nothing. Guess this is what will happen when you you have been hurting mentally emotionally physically for so long now you get used to it.

-"Chanyeol don't listen to them." Kai said. I just smiled, a really fake one.

-"I'm ok."

Author's POV

-"I bought her some chocolate but before I could give it to her she told me she already had a boyfriend. So I ate it all by myself. I regret it so much. That's really sad." Yixing added. Baekhyun took a quick glance at the man walking beside him and nodded.

-"knowing she already had a boyfriend?"

-"No, eating that chocolate. I should have sold it too my friend at least I could get some money back."