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Chapter 4: Emotions are a Secret

Daren's POV:  WHY I Don't Get Psychology 101: according to our regular teacher, people  who are going through depression are also supposed to show symptoms of Insomnia along with being physically inactive.

Well, I just slept for nine whole hours so definitely not an insomniac  , I play football and I am in my high school football team as one of the main players so definitely a very physically active person and therefore I am DEFINITELY NOT DEPRESSED, I am fine, I am extremely happy, I am just a PERFECT human being to be honest.

I can't believe I took this subject to begin with, but I guess this is the only way I can graduate high school and I guess that's a very important achievement to have right? Because I still don't see the point of doing anything to be honest however I can't say that out aloud as what if people matched it up?

Though that reminds me now it's supposed to be Psychology class, what am I doing? I should probably head to the classroom now as the whole point of taking this subject is to raise my grades so I guess I should put some sort of effort in it unlike our teachers. I have reached the classroom but the door is closed with a huge notice on it which reads 'ALL CLASSES HAVE BEEN MOVED TO THE AUDITORIUM' now what new is Liberty High up to? 

I guess I missed quite a bit in one day so I start walking towards the Auditorium which is bigger than a regular classroom but smaller than the main hall and is used for mostly small scaled events when I find Brian, one of my teammates along the way and as he has this subject too, I ask him to fill me up with the latest updates  as we walk together to the auditorium. 

Brian is a nice guy but he needs to relax when he is talking because the whole time he talked the only single thing I got from the conversation was the new teacher is hot, well, good for her.

And by the time we reached the hall I realized Brian was so busy describing the teacher's extraordinary hotness he forgot to mention the most important part, the two sections had been merged.

I stare at the crowded room is absolute horror, all my most hated people in the whole school are jam packed in one space, am I dreaming? Please tell me I am. Jesus Christ!  

I try my best to ignore any form of eye contact and make my way towards the row which is the most empty of them all and take a sit, I can already see One of Sabrina's friends as they define it sitting two rows ahead of me, I mean I don't really have enough time or energy to hate them or something but if I have had that amount of interest in this school and the people in it, Sabrina and that other School heartthrob who rejected her about three times and at the end she resorted on becoming his "Best friend" would be on the top of my MOST HATED LIST because their little perfect superficial world annoys me to death, What the hell that guy is here too?

Talk about not having a good day? It looks like I am having a bad life.

Caleb Hester is flashing giant grins in every direction while the other Sabrina friend is also pretending to be enjoying something really funny, and after noticing them for a few more seconds I realized I don't really care so I take my eyes off them and take my headphones out from the bag as in Liberty Highs you can carry electronic devices as along as you want if you are not harming the classes or not paying the attention during the class and as the new teacher hasn't arrived yet it's the perfect timing to let the music get my mind out of the prison of my thoughts. 

 I clicked the play button and the exact second the new teacher literally popped into the room and so did the principle and last thing I want to do is loose my dear headphones so I quickly kept it back in my bag and straightened up.

Brain has always had a habit of becoming too excited about not so exciting things and he has done the same thing this time as well, the new teacher is pretty but not "Oh my god! She is the goddess of Hotness, I want to worship her and what not" type.

Miss Meredith I guess is her name, after asking and saying a few not important things began the lesson and I realized how much different she was from all the other teachers we have had so far and I can't really say if I like that too much or not.

She was talking something about Psychotherapy, sharing one's problems and the whole ever living stigma around getting help from therapy, when she suddenly she stopped and looked intently at our faces as if she had struck some sort of treasure and then said, "I have an idea! How many of you here have social media account? All of you right? so tell me what you think about a social media site but instead of sharing what new thing you brought or where you went or what new happened in you life, You share your feelings unanimously!" 

"No one will judge you there and when you share and know what other people feel and go through, it would help you to deal with your problems better as well! now won't that be the nicest thing ever? what do you guys think?"

Sounds like amazing dream in the lands of dreams not an actual possible reality in the land of humans but nice try Miss Meredith, I think to myself.  

This woman has gone crazy she wants people to share their emotions even if it's unanimously? What's wrong with her? I don't want to share my emotions because emotions, feelings as they are not supposed to be shared.

Sharing emotions has never done any help to absolutely anyone and even if it has done the feeling that someone else knows your biggest secrets which can destroy you at a blink of a second and the only thing that you are depending on is a hypothetical idea named "Trust" is just  stupid, It's just plain stupid and even if you don't know that person and that person doesn't know you then why will you share your emotions with someone whom you don't know? What guarantee do you have that, that person would understand and is not looking at you like just another idiot who would rant about their worries for an hour or so, you would tell him some calming things and say, "It's okay to feel" kind of shit and then he would pay you money and go, while  guess what happens to the problems? they will be just as they were before, you just now happened to have someone else apart from you telling you that those problems would be over one day,

Emotions are meant to be felt and kept as secret as the moment you reveal them you are taking out a suit of armor in the battle field where everyone has guns, cannons and specially knifes at the back of their hands.