Twit Talker (One Direction save a life story)

whats wrong, let me explain that, total body meltdown, I'm sorry, It's not okay

Julia baby whats wrong are you hurt Julia speak me love I have to know if I’m going to help you,Louis said dropping to his knees beside me.I shook my head trying to tell him I was okay but it didn’t work.It took a few minutes for me to regain any sort of feeling this was a bad one it was a total break down that my doctors had warned me about before this one to me hard and fast.I slowly got myself up and I grabbed ahold of the counter to steady myself.I sat myself in a bar stool and I put my head on the counter this total break down left me with a migraine.Finally I felt confident enough to stand up and I grabbed a glass of water and some migraine tablets.I popped the pills into my mouth and I chugged the water down.I leaned against the counter for a moment.I was really dizzy from this and I hopped the pills would kick in soon.I look up and the curious gazes of my boys met me.They were confused to all hell at what just happened but I understood my problems they didn’t need a huge explanation but I knew they deserved one after the trouble I’ve caused.

Would you like me to explain,I asked with a shaking feeling in my voice.They all nodded there heads.I nodded taking another sip of water and I took a deep breath.

Alright what you just saw was called a total body break down or melt down it’s when my whole body has too much stress or anxiety and it over whelms my system and it shuts down more or less so that is what that was and it was caused by one too much stress and anxiety but also they first happened after the beatings that my parent’s gave me they became so severe that they caused a condition in my called Meltaphomia Lengitis which in short is a series of total body break downs there is no cure for them and they happen once in a while this one here took me hard and fast I didn’t have time to react and it left me with little balance right now, dizziness, and a migraine head ache,I said taking a slow sharp breath in.All there faces fell like this was a great secret and they had some other idea about it and what I just said was not what they expected.

I’m sorry I didn’t tell you sooner really they are so few and far between that it didn’t occur to me that it would matter to you,I said taking another sip of water letting it slowly slip down my throat.

Julia baby I-I-I,Louis stammered.I put my hand up signaling him to stop.

It’s fine Louis really you didn’t know that was my fault alright don’t blame yourself,I said stepping forward and placing a hand on his shoulder.I looked up smiling at the rest of the boys they all still seemed shocked.I lowered my gaze.