Rebel Knights

Chapter 10

Saturday, 10:45 a.m. at the Golden Knights restaurant - 

"I've changed my mind, I want to go to your place," I tell Gabriel, completely freaking out as I pace the length of the bar. 

Roman stops my pacing by pulling me into his muscular body, where I instantly wrap myself around him like a second skin - jumping slightly in his hold, I wrap my arms around his neck and my legs around his waist. Digging my face into his neck, I inhale his Axe cologne and body spray, as I try to calm myself down, but it's proving difficult. Roman runs his large, warm hand over my back while swaying us side to side. Moving my face so I can see Christian, Gabriel and the others - Mitchell, Chaplin, Shorty, Bumblebee, Siren, Parker, Anthony and Micah with wide, fearful eyes. 

'Colten, everything will be fine,' Gabriel signs, smiling warmly at me; nodding my head even though I don't fully believe him. I tighten my hold on Roman's body. 

Noticing everyone's attention has turned toward the door, I pick my head up to see my grandparents entering the resturant. They look the same, only several years older from the last time we saw them. When grandma makes eye contact with me, she brightly smiles at me while grandpa does the same with Christian. Grandpa has always prefered Christian over me, but that's fine I guess. I see Christian step away from Gabriel to hug our grandparents, grandpa first. 

I watch Gabriel gesture for my grandparents to sit at the tables that were pushed together to accomadate everyone here. Before grandma sits down, she hugs me tightly once I've untangled myself from Roman, while grandpa just nods his head at me with a neutral expression as we all sit. Throughout the entire two hour dinner meeting, everyone from the Rebel Knights would sign as they spoke, and Christian or Gabriel would sign to me whatever my grandparents would say; which is mainly that they want to see us once a month, wherever we're comfortable meeting them. Christian and I agreed on this resturant since it's an easily controlled location, and have the memebers here if they are needed. 

As our grandparents leave, grandpa stops at the door, which he is holding open for grandma to turn around and tell me something and once he's finished, I turn to Christian to find out what was said; 'Mum filed for divorce two months ago, as she realized what dad did was horrific. She hates herself and him for how they reacted to your sexuality. Mum misses us both, and wants to see us to make sure we're okay and to apologize.'

Violently shaking my head at him, telling my grandparents; "I don't give a fuck what she wants! I don't want to see or talk to her! She allowed him and his friends to violently beat and rape me! As far as I'm concerned they're both dead!"

Everyone around me has to pick their jaws up from the floor at my outburst but I don't give a damn. My mum's hopes and guilt can go to hell and stay there for all I give a damn. 

'I want to see her once before never seeing her again. I have a few things I want to tell her,'

"Do what you want but Gabriel and a few others need to be with you when you do this," I tell him; he's a big boy and can make that decision for himself. 

A month later -

Christian, Gabriel, Mitchell, Anthony and Micah are meeting with our grandparents and mum at the resturant today - they're there right now. Roman and I are together at his home watching a movie and having Thai for dinner. His house is simple yet elegant with house with how it is painted inside and out and decorated on the inside. The outside of the house is painted eggshell white and the inside is painted slate gray, and his decorations are tasteful and few. 

"Roman, you promise Christian will be okay?" I ask for probably the hundreth time in last hour. 

He softly smiles as he takes my empty container of food from me to place it on the coffee table before signing; 'Yes Colten, I promise nothing will happen to him while he is with everyone.'

Biting my lower lip, while fiddeling with my fingers, as I try to calm myself down from the horrible 'what-if's that are running through my head. 

He taps my left thigh to gain my attention, and once I look at him he signs; 'Baby, please relax. You know Gabriel won't allow anyone to say or do anything horrible to Christian while he's with your brother.'

"Okay, I trust you," I mumble giving him a weak smile; he pulls me sideways onto his lap, allowing me to snuggle into his hold comfortably, I lie my head on his shoulder to inhale his intoxicating scent, and I calm almost immeditly while he clicks play on the next movie off of Netflix. 

Two hours later, Gabriel and Christian arrive at Roman's since they both know I want to see my brother personally to make sure he's fine, but they are not alone. They've brought our grandparents and mum, I drop my jaw in shock and anger that she's here after I specifically said I didn't want to see her.

"What the fuck?" I growl, looking at Gabriel. "I said I didn't want to see her!"

Roman pulls my back into his firm chest, and holds me tightly to his chest. My anger dims slightly but not completly, and he kisses me on the top of the head as I place my arms over the top of hiswhile I contine to glare at my mum and grandparents.

'She wanted to talk to you, Colten, and has agreed that if you never want to see her after this, she'll leave you alone forever,' Christian signs.

"Talk and then leave forever. I won't forgive you and I don't want anything to do with you," I growl at her.

As she talks Christian signs; 'I'm sorry for allowing you dad to abuse you for your sexuality. I know my apology means shit, as I shouldn't have let his anger and view cloud my actions at what he did. I was scared of him and I didn't think he would have reacted the way he did. Please, baby, I need both of my boys in my life. Please Colten, let me be in your life, as I'm moving here to NYU? We can meet wherever you want."

Scoffing at her, I calmly say even though I don't feel calm; "Not happening. Enjoy your life and leave me alone."

After a couple of more minutes, the three of them leave the four of us alone, and that's when I break down in sobs. Roman turns me in his hold , and I cling to him as I sob my heart out into his shirt. I end up staying the night at Roman's, sleeping with him in his bed as he holds me tightly.