satisfied | akagi michinari [✓]

twelve.

but when i fantasise at night, in l/n's eyes

as i romanticise what it might have been if shinsuke hadn't sized 

her up so quickly. at least i'm still somewhat by her side

at least i keep her eyes in my life

the boy from five years ago.

he felt an overwhelming pain as he saw the two together. they were officially dating.

but what was he to do? he was 'just a friend', after all. he was a friend to both of them. he knew they belonged together, so he didn't dare try anything to stop them.

the girl, l/n, was the girl he saved from suicide all those years ago. it made sense. l/n can't have always been as happy and relaxed as she was now. she had suffered. and he was the one to save her from her dark days.

the boy, kita, was one of his friends. one of his closer friends, at that.

he was smart and he knew it wouldn't be often kita shinsuke would develop an interest in a girl. so he decided to let him take her. it wouldn't be right for him to take away his first love. now he knew what kind of pain that would be.

but he kept on asking himself,

'is this really worth it?'

he'd never know where he'd be if he hadn't decided to give her away.

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'i know shinsuke like i know my own mind'

'you will never find anyone as trusting or as kind'

'and three years ago he said to me,'

''this one's mine''

'so i stood by'

'do you know why?'

'i care for shinsuke more than anything in this life'

'i would choose his happiness over mine, anytime.'

'l/n and kita are the best things in my life'

'he better not lose sight of the fact he has been blessed with the best future wife'

'congratulations'

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"akagi? why are you crying?"