No Name [Ereri/Riren Fanfic] [COMPLETED]

Chapter Eighteen

A/N: Play the song provided when you see ♫ Thank you, and enjoy!

     The next time I woke up I could hear birds chirping and feel the sun's rays beaming on my face from my window. I was about to get up to shut the blinds but I felt someone's arms wrapped around me yet again. I looked over and saw that the brunet was snuggled up to me while still holding me in his embrace from last night. The shock or embarrassment didn't come to me this time, so I just let him keep his hold. After hearing the last words from his mouth before I fell asleep, I started to wonder if I was worrying for nothing when it came to finally telling him how I really felt. I still wasn't sure though, so I wasn't going to jump the gun and tell him.

     After a half hour or so, Eren began to stir awake from his peaceful slumber. I watched as he stretched out in a familiar way before trying to sit up, rubbing his sleepy eyes. I couldn't help but let out a few light chuckles.

     "Hey... What's so funny?"

     "It's nothing. I couldn't help myself though with the way you stretched out like a cat." I continued to laugh.

     I calmed myself down when I heard Eren sigh in defeat and sit up. I stayed where I was and then my eyes landed on his back... The place where his scars were... I held onto my arms and looked away, but I think he saw me.

     "You still get upset about them, don't you?"

     "... He's your father, Eren. He was supposed to care for you and nurture you alongside your mother... Not hurt you..."

     "Still though, knowing that you worry about me is enough for me to know that these scars aren't all that bad."

     "That doesn't make a lick of sense, brat."

     "Maybe, but it makes sense to me. Instead of these scars being a constant reminder of him, I'm reminded of the person who's trying his best to help me through everything: You."

     Once again I was dumbstruck by his words. He always knew what to say and when to say it, no matter the subject of the conversation. God I hated this, but I loved it all the same. Why can't I just tell him how I feel? Maybe M was right; maybe I need to gather my courage and tell him when I'm ready. Today is the last day before we go back to the daily grind of constant lyric sessions and practices from a nine to five basis. We usually drink some before the night is over and play some games, so maybe I can tell him then when I'm loosened up? Wouldn't hurt to try.

     At breakfast, Erwin had told us that he wouldn't be able to join us for tonight's small festivities; Eren and I were beyond relieved to hear that. So once he left, the rest of us went around the house trying to find things for games and where our liquor was as Erwin always hides the stuff from us. Eren and I worked on the drinks, even though we were underage, while M and H decided to put up some small decorations in the rooms we'd spend time in. However, I could tell that they were planning something since they kept looking back at me and the brunet and back to their decorations. I question who're the real children here.

     So far, we had spent half our day getting things ready for our last day off so we were taking a break as we had practically everything ready to go. Hanji had made her famous wild berry lemonade so we all gorged on it like it was nectar. I watched as Hanji and Miche laughed and shared jokes and just had fun, meanwhile I had small conversations with Eren to pass the time. I have to admit, I was jealous of them having something I didn't but it was fine by me. I still had my music and with that my mother watching over me. That was enough for me to get by before that is; now I don't feel as strongly connected to her anymore and that terrifies me.