Page 16 – Someone Who Choose You Over and Over Again
IT WAS morning of the next day. Nasa condo ako ni Vincentte, eating some cereals for breakfast. Bagsak ako sa kama buong gabi. Kakagising ko lang few minutes ago. We had exchanged some pleasantries but now I am craving to confess everything.
“I’m a problem gambler, actually, bordering na ako sa compulsive gambling. I…I have this urge to keep on gambling hanggang sa may pwede pa akong itaya,” Ibinaba niya ang hawak na kutsara at diretsong tumitig sa akin, nakikinig. Nagpatuloy ako, “I met Zenair, or Raizen as you know him, and he's the person who encouraged and supported me to keep this lifestyle. Furthermore, he have a way to keep things…more exciting.”
Naalala ko yung mga pagkakataon na nagtatalik kami o gumagawa ng mga sexual na aktibidad at dito ibinabase ang sugal. Ikinuwento ko kay Vincentte lahat lahat nang nangyari sa pagitan naming dalawa ni Zenair. I was avoiding his gaze the whole time. Natatakot ako sa magiging reaksyon niya pero kailangan kong ilantad lahat upang wala nang humarang sa aming dalawa. Kung ano man ang magiging desisyon niya pagkatapos nito, tanggap ko, matamis man o mapait.
Ikukuwento ko na ang huling sexual encounter namin nang biglang nagsalita si Vincentte, “Stop talking about him.” Napahinto ako at ibinaling ang tingin pababa. Fuck. His voice sounded so cold. This won’t end well. My breathing stuttered when he placed his fingertips against my chin lifting it up so our stares were now connected. Vincentte looked so serious. “What I want to know,” sambit niya, “..is why you left and left me again.”
Hindi ako kaagad na nakasagot.
“May problema ba sa akin, Willow? Hindi ba ako sapat kaya naman…na-enjoy mo rin ang ibang lalaki?”
“No!” malakas na ‘di pag sang-ayon ko, “There’s nothing wrong with you. Hindi ka nagkulang! Sobra ka pa nga! What happened between me and Zenair was just brought out by thrill and lust but I swear there’s no love. I love you, Vincentte, ikaw lang ang lalaking mahal ko! Call it cliché but the wrongness is with me.”
My vision blurred with tears.
“I am a problem gambler. My wants are dark and twisted. I don’t want to involve you in this world. You deserve…a woman who have a decent life compared to mine.”
“That’s it?” tanong niya.
Napakunot noo ko, “What?”
“You left me because you thought you're bad for me? You didn’t even give me the chance to share my side, Willow!”
“Vincentte…”
“Kaya heto, sasabihin ko, I love everything about you and that include your flaws, your imperfections,”
Vincentte reached for my hand across the table, “Starting from now, let me be there with you as you face them all.”
Tuluyan ng pumatak ang mga luha ko, “Tanggap mo ako…kahit gan'to ako?”
Vincentte traced the path of my tears, wiping them, “What I feel for you is way beyond acceptance. I’m just here, always here, let me stay by your side. Be with me always, my Willow Tree.”
Tumayo siya at inakay ako papunta sa kama. Magkayakap kaming nakaharap sa isa't-isa.
“I want to be better, Vincentte, ayaw ko nang malulong sa bisyo.”
Vincentte dropped a kiss on my forehead, “Let me help you in managing your problem gambling. We could also approach others who could help us. Most of all,” he lovingly caressed my cheeks, “..help yourself, Willow Kageyama. If you want to be better, have the will and dedication to be better. Magtiwala ka sa iyong sarili na kaya mo.”
BINABASA MO ANG
Seduce the Gambler (PUBLISHED) ✔️
General Fiction(The Power Assembly Book 3 || STAND-ALONE) Status: COMPLETED *now PUBLISHED into PAPERBACK* Warning: R18+ | explicit mature contents. Reader discretion is advised. Summary: Willow Kageyama, a perfect daughter, a perfect sister...or so they thought...
